Electric Shock Feeling While Almost Asleep

today i woke up at 7.35am.
actually i should wake up at 7am because i know after i prepared myself, it will become almost 8am to reach the bus stop where i will be late.
around 8.40am i reached Jelatek LRT and walked a while to the bus stop.
therefore by the time i reach my office, the time was already 9.18am which i was late.
honestly, this kind of feelings was just like college where i also late to attend my class.
anyways, i spend my time analyzing and planning strategy for the company.
around 1pm i followed my colleagues to the nearby restaurant to have our lunch.
somehow just feel it was very worth to eat there because it was in a big portion and the price was quite cheap.

however, there is a "rude" people with two people suddenly sit the place where i help my colleagues to "book" and i just feel maybe i look like child, that's why the stranger ignored me although i said there is people sitting soon.
well, i just feel that i will see more and more different type of people soon.
besides, i also listened some story about construction line where most of the money has been "eat" by the government instead of the contractor.
therefore only big company can survive with "government" tender because they have enough capital to support the expenses.
for an example, when the government approved a contract building, the developer need to pay a certain amount of money and only will earn back after 20 years.

somehow this make me feel the world seems to be more "dark" because there is more corruption, bribe and other case happening everyday.
during the afternoon, i just analyze competitor strategy and keep on research.
honestly, i just feel stress because i will get the blame if the plan failed although this marketing job sounds easy to do.
besides, i also analyze my company using Google Analytic tools and found many problem that need to be solve.
in fact, i did not study in deep during my "schooling" days where the school never teach on focusing more of online marketing.
around 6.30pm i make a move from there by taking bus.

suddenly my body having "Electric Shock Feeling" while almost asleep in the bus.
actually this incident happened to me recently where i don't know how to describe the feelings.
it is like having a scared feeling but without the fear on my body but is like a jolted with electric.
furthermore, i also remember that during the afternoon at office, i also have this situation although my eye automatically take nap for 15 seconds.
then i just phoned to the only girl i can phone to which is my sister and tell her about this.
she just said that i was over tired and stress had resulted this "disease".
well, my sister was also the only family member that know i like to blog and she advice me to stop blogging anymore.
it is because she feel that blog does not bring any benefits to me.

moreover, i don't even earn money from blogging unlike other blogger.
i just tell my sister it seems to be my passion to blog but she keep said "passion can't treat as food for living" which make me feel quite down.
perhaps it was true that blogging is a waste of time and only for those people who free until nothing to do right?
furthermore, no people will really care much since it is my personal stuff.
around 7.25pm i arrived Wangsa Maju and have my dinner there alone.
somehow just got many thought that gone through my mind again.
i start questioned myself what's the reason i working for now?
honestly, i just feel working now was to prove that i can survive without support from family?

perhaps my sister was quite right that i don't even qualify to study at United Kingdom and don't waste money for going although i wanted to go.
as for my advance diploma year at Tarc, i just feel it was like wasting my 2 years of study where my "determination" to study was not strong and easily hurt by others factor.
furthermore, i feel myself was quite a "bad" person where i have the feeling of want to have others people exam result without paying much effort to get it myself.
seriously i did think that why don't just let me to UK to "study" and automatic pass my all paper for letting me get a degree certification?
on the other hand, i do have a "childish" thinking where i hope to have the "Men In Black 2 forget pen" so that i can clean all my existence from my friends memory.

later on, i just used my computer to search some information a while.
it seems that my "Electric Shock Feeling" disease can be cured if i have enough sleep because i just manage to sleep about 4 hour+ everyday.
besides, just feel to share a very cool commercial about "Invisible Mercedes".
it is actually a Mercedes Benz B-Class F-CELL vehicle that show it's "invisible" capability (advertise the car’s zero emissions).
well, the cloaking effect was created by rigging the vehicle with LED lights and using Canon 5D Mark II camera for reflection.
anyways, you can have a look at the link >>> Here.
furthermore, i liked the song of the commercial and found that it was similar to Marteria Verstrahlt instrumental song at >>> Here.
therefore here goes my happy + positive moment when looking at cool things.
=D