then i just do a final revision of the "MGT" before went to sit for it.
around 10.50am i make a move from house and went to attend the ECM tutorial.
somehow i do feel nervous and the tutor arrived at 11.45am and distribute the paper to us.
besides, i do feel more nervous when she said that "this is the easiest test" before you go for final.
during the time i do the time, i do face a little difficulties but i got confidence to pass.
when i was going to submit the paper, the tutor "warned" me that "have you check it again because this is the final chance and if you fail this test, you will never able to sit for the final exam" that make me quite worry.
actually we can't blame the tutor for saying such thing because if we can't even do this easy test, how can we able to answer it when it comes at in the final exam.
however, i still have the "worry" feelings since she will upload our result to CEL tomorrow and what's if i can't make it but i keep told myself to think positive that i will definitely pass.
after that, i went to the canteen 2 to buy some bread as my lunch and went back home to settle the evening tutorial presentation.
somehow i don't really know how to answer it and just simply write the answer.
around 2.50pm i make a move from house and went to attend the SMDM tutorial.
somehow i just wondering why my "face expression" always can be so easily guess by others when the tutor saw my "worry" expression and it was true that i worry will get scold when presenting the answer.
anyways, the presentation was just "okay" although the answer was not right and ended up with a low participation marks.
moreover, i do have a feelings that "is this all i like?" since everything is all about marketing, more marketing skills and strategic decision making analytical skills.
one thing that he say was quite true about the competition in this field was so high that everyone was having almost similar skills but you just need to be outstanding by having good testimonial from lecturer and tutor.
after the class, i was invited by my current classmate to have dinner together at Wangsa Maju and this was the first time to have dinner with them after class despite it is already week 14 which is the last week.
somehow i do feel how great if this scenario happens in week 1 but it is impossible as friendship required time to build and i do gain a lot of experience from my past.
anyways, they was quite friendly although i not really like those "clubbing" things since i don't have any experience of it partly because it is quite expensive and need to do those "touchy touchy" things.
finally i arrived back home at 7.30pm after send one of my classmate back.
somehow i was "frustrated" because feeling contradict whether want to go for a movie or not since i told myself should stop this kind of entertainment while the final exam start next week but it was Wednesday whereby there was a promotion of RM9 at TGV cinema.
after some moment passed, i decided to buy it online but failed in the end although i tried to choose the Hobbit, an unexpected journey or Life of Pi movie at 8pm or 9pm because the internet connection was too slow that eventually make the booking transaction unsuccessful.
therefore i just went to sleep again because feeling too tired and "frustrated" for having so many thought.
the moment i woke up again was already 10.40pm and i do feel quite "sucks" to think about those "negative" thought again when reviewed myself about the "5 Harsh Truths" in life post.
honestly, i do have a though of "hope the world will end" at this coming Friday which is the 21st December 2012 Doomsday in Mayan calendar.
such a loser" that i am already 22 years old still keep thinking on those things that brings no benefits to myself such as "I had already lost one year graduation+going to SHU when compared to my friend, i realize myself did not do anything and feel like pretending doing something to add value in my life, i am still virgin and wanted to try those 18++ stuff but feel no guts due to want to have a good guy imagine, i want my ex-classmate/ex-ex-classmate to care for me, i want earn money but don't want to put in effort by doing those promoter/flyers distributor part time job, i want to graduate but don't want to sit for exam, i want to have at least successful chase one girl throughout my life, i want to be successful in stock market/Forex investment" and so much more thought that get me "crazy" soon.
therefore the only way to "solve" all this would be probably the end of the world since i have nothing much to lose because i seems to do nothing in my life. (earn/study so much money/hard also need die lah?)
however, it is quite a "selfish" though if i think like that because "if you don't want to live, there is so much people wanted to live but don't have choice to choose the life they wanted such as those poor country people and how about your family?" which is quite true.
at the end, i realized the things i wanted most is to have at least "some" people to care for me but it doesn't work out if you does not care for other's people first right?
anyways, the world will not end at this coming 21st December although it is regarded as the end date of a 5125 year long cycle in the Mesoamerican Long Count calendar as it left 2 days time as shown below.
before i end my post, i would like to share an interesting story about "A poor boy who loved for a rich girl" as shown below.
A poor boy loved a rich girl.
One day the boy proposed to her and the girl said,
your monthly salary is my daily hand expenses..How can I be involved with you..?
How could you have thought of that..?
I can never love you..
So, forget about me and get engaged to someone else at your level".
But somehow the boy could not forget her so easily.
Sometime 10 years later, they stumbled into each other in a shopping mall.
The lady said, "Hey..!You..! How are you..?
Now I'm married and do you know how much my husband's salary is..? $15,700 per month..!
Can you believe that..?
And he is also very smart.."
The guy's eyes got wet with tears on hearing those words..
A few seconds later, her husband came but before the lady could say a word, her husband seeing the guy and said,"Sir, you're here and you've met my wife.."
Then he said to his wife, "This is my boss, I'm also one of those working on his $100 million project
And do you know a fact my dear..? My boss loved a lady but he couldn't win her heart..
That's why he has remained unmarried.
How lucky would that lady have been if she had married him..
These days, who will love someone that much he said to his wife..
The lady looked in total shock but couldn't utter a word..
Life is so short and it's just like a mirror..
You can only see as much as it reflects..
So don't be too arrogant and proud of yourself by looking down on others,
because situations change with time just like the weather..
Don't under estimate anyone, cause everyone has potential..!
somehow i don't think the story is real because it is "too good to be true" but it is quite nice to read.
on the other hand, someone had uploaded the latest "Ming Ming Jiu Jay Chou (明明就 周杰伦)" MV video as below or the link >>> Here.
well, i just liked the song so much especially the lyrics meanings.
overall i feel thankful to boinky advice that life would be better after 25 years old and i should be have faith on myself that i will definitely be more financial stable during that time. (now no $$ let people look down nevermind, as long as yourself don't look down at yourself)
at last, i feel a sentences was quite meaning that is "well, you know, one thing you sometimes forget is, no matter how hard your day, no matter how tough your choices, how complex your ethical decisions, you always get to choose what you have for lunch" which is quite true.