then i get myself prepared although it is still early to attend the lecture class.
after that, i went to the Tarc canteen 1 to have my lunch but i walk back to canteen 2 because there is a lot of people queue up at the economy rice shop.
somehow it is confirmed that there is Tarc Snowflake opening soon but there is still don't have any sign of Tarc Marrybrown opening at there.
besides, it is quite awkward to see that "Each A Cup" was also one of the stall that opening today although the original brochures did not show it.
anyways, the canteen 2 seems to be have lesser people compare to last time because it has been crowded with a lot of student that time.
while i was atteding the ECM tutorial, i just realized that the last year resit paper for the subject tends to be more easy than this year.
somehow i do keep remind myself that don't think of the past anymore and should live on the present.
after that class, i went back home to wash my clothes and some cleaning stuff.
around 6.30pm i went to have my dinner alone and don't have much appetite to eat.
honestly, i realized that sometime having a "thought" in the mind is just like being "raped" because you will eventually keep thinking about the same problem and feel quite helpless.
during the night, i just surf the internet and feel that sometime it is better express so much "inner feelings" online although using an anonymous identity.
it is because it would be very awkward+weird when someone found out that "guy" was you.
before i end my post, i would like to share a meaningful "Selling Kidney Story" (卖肾)video that i saw as below or the link >>> Here.
then the husband feel so guilty for "wasting" his wife "youth" (青春) and decided to sell his kidney for RMB 180K in the black market.
however, the "evil buyer" denied the deal and would buy for RMB 45K after the "pet surgeon" taken out his kidney but still want to cheat him by saying that the operation fee cost RMB 42K which means he only earn RMB 3000 after selling his kidney.
somehow i believe it might be real although it was just a short film movie.
the strong message from the video was "We have worked hard for a living, do no lose yourself while you're finding the happiness" (我们都在为生活打拼，在追求幸福生活的环境中，请不要迷失自己) which is so true.
furthermore, it does remind me about the news of a Chinese teen sells his kidney to buy an iPad 2 last year.
another was story was about two generation of father and son sell their kidneys in the capital city of Rawalpindi, Pakistan for 100,000 rupees (1,200 US dollars) that show out people's frustration and bitterness of life while i still remember the post that i write during 2010 about "the world's most bitter way of life" (全球各地最辛酸的生存方式) which is very meaningful to me.
anyways, i don't think i have the right to comment whether it is right or wrong to sell the kidney for cash because i did not gone through the life they had and most of the situation was over desperate for money.
guess i should not whine or complaining so much about the life i have while i was still counting/preparing my last 18 days for exam.