actually yesterday i was having a terrible mood especially when i was trying to sleep.
as i finish written my blog post and sleep around 11.20pm, i was awakens by my room mate's call from his "girl girl" around 12.15am and i was trying to endure my feeling that time but ended up "beh tahan" (can't stand anymore) and told him to go outside to talk.
then eventually i fall asleep but woke up again around 2am by his "girl girl" call again since he talking back on the room and i just take my ES revision to go out the living room for study instead of asking him to go out.
honestly, if i ask him go out it is like showing that i am "envy about he can talk with girls" while i am bothering him for talking right?
somehow my feeling for that moment was like "Tar college girls no need sleep meh at midnight?"
besides, the feelings of "self-pity" mood came back again where i talking to myself that "See lah, no wonder till now no girlfriend that i keep envy other people cause a "geng" strong people will try to solve the problem instead of whining like a small little girl in blogging world and to be specific, guy won't do this kind of thing.
then i told myself that today was the last day of 2012 before New Year, "lonelyreload" (me) can don't be so calculative or not yet i was already a senior.
sometime i just feeling myself quite "funny" that i can store my anger until the night time only can express out partly because i had written some note on my phone in order to "store" those feeling and this note was written during the midnight while the weather still raining as shown below.
finally it had ends around 4am and i went to sleep and finally woke up again at 7.20am.
then i do my final revision for the entrepreneur test and make a move around 8.30am to the venue.
as i get the paper, i was feeling quite relief because i know how to do the question such as writing 8 characteristic of entrepreneur, 8 myths of entrepreneur, ways to protect the intellectual property, how to marketing a franchise.
well, the first thing i do was giving full concentration on the financial part and was happy that i can able to make the account balance in the end but it had used me almost 1 hour and 15 minute for that question.
then i quickly write down the other part answer in a "super turbo" mode since the time left only 2 hour to do the other question.
moreover, i was thankful to my tutor that he advice us to do the financial part first before other thing else.
somehow i just feel the writing style for the exam question was like my blogging style especially when i writing the the marketing plan for the "Tung Ku King" question that about selling mushroom cultivation kit where i recall back my experience of Mushroom Cultivation at Johor Tarc few month ago.
overall i was so confidence that i will at least pass or even score an A for this Entrepreneurial Skills repeat examination and finally can say "bye bye" to the ABDM5234 code.
as i arrive at home, i went out to refill my water and bought economy rice as my lunch.
later on, a friend phoned whether want to go out and i joined although i was feeling quite tired.
around 6.30pm we make a move from house and went to Pizza Hut to have our dinner while waiting another friend to back from work.
after that, we went to KL Festival to see the movie available but ended up drive to Wangsa Maju.
the movie that i choose was "Upside Down" movie and below was the synopsis for the movie.
while watching the movie around 9.20pm, it is quite nice in my point of view since i like sci-fi film although the movie have many loopholes.
furthermore, i like the story line which is like a guy having 1 hour to love a girl before he burned to death.
another thing i feel quite interesting about the movie was there is two world where the Up world refer to the rich society while the Down world is the poor society.
however, the thing i dislike from the movie was about the Malaysia censorship for the "kissing scene" and below was some scene of it.
finally i arrived back home at 11.30pm and having the "New Year countdown" for new year at the top roof at 12am as below.
on the other hand, i do read back on my last year post for 2011 Countdown at Genting and it does leave me some "emos" feelings.
honestly, until now i will still thinker about "her" whenever i feel "lonely" since i don't any girl to think about especially when it coming to 14th January.
seriously every year i have a vision that i will eventually forget about it when i am success to chase a girl but looks like nothing change much for this year.
in fact, my "whining" feeling for her had made the top 1 in Google search for "goodbye" keyword as below that will eventually link to that "most sad day of my life about her" but i tend to wondering is this what i want after so long to let people see my weakness?
perhaps i did not grow much for my so call "a growing teenager trying to have some improvement in Malaysia" goals although i have completed all the 2012 post for this year.
somehow i do have another feeling but want to express in a Chinese sentences which is "在我心里，只有我自己正真知道谁对我真心或假意。有些时候不喜欢那些人一直说没有钱，可是明明是有钱，更觉得自己也很矛盾到底自己也是不是那种人？很多时候，我真的很想回去从前再改过一些东西，或许能改变一些东西，可是也知道是没有可能的事实".
maybe Steve Job was right about "Stay hungry, Stay foolish" so that i can be taking more initiative to have a change in my life and planning my next journey because after this exam, i really need to find job or else i will "die".
besides, this year is quite different because having 366 post since every 4 years will have 366 days instead of 365 days.
somehow i was wondering whether i still want to continue to whine for next year?
at last, two more paper to go before i can talk about my degree related things.
the conclusion for today post actually it is like giving myself a "self review" of what happening on this year 2012.
in fact, being too concern about some "small stuff" will only bring myself down and as i blogged more and more post, it is quite "sucks" too to discover own weakness/disgusting attitude and yet doing nothing.