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The Power Of Smiling 微笑的力量

2012-01-29T09:58:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 12.50pm.
as i awaken, mother informed me that we will be going out to relative house.
besides, she also cooked some dishes for my sister since she is not going out together with us.
around 2pm i prepared myself and we make a move after that.
we reached the relative house near OUG Kepong around 3pm and saw a lot of mother's relative and cousin.
during the moment at there, i just enjoyed myself with having the food around.
then it is followed by "Lou Yee Sang" again and the taste was just okay.
after that, we make a move at 5pm to father's relative house for giving something near Kota Kemuning area.

upon leaving from there, we went to the "Ba Kua" (Dried Meat) shop again to buy some.
finally i reach my home at 7pm and enjoyed myself with the food that just bought.
during the night, i spend my time playing few rounds of Dota.
later on, my secondary classmate phoned and invited me to a friend house.
however, i don't have transportation and it seems that it has been canceled.
somehow just feel that transport seems to be very important at my age.
actually today there is not much things happens and i was procrastinate again because have something important to do but feel to delay it such as sending more resume for job application.
on the other hand, there is one meaningful story that i would like to share about which title "The Power Of Smiling" (微笑的力量).

well, below was the details of the story in words because it is in Cantonese.
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have you ever wondered that the power of a smile can bring how much impact in our life?
there is an author in a newspaper said that many people asked him why he always "carry" a smile in his face.
then he said actually before his 30's years old, he don't have anything that can make people happy no matter in working or relationship.
after that, he had met a professor that always carry a smile in his face during the college.
one day, he and the professor was in a hot sun and the professor told him a very important thing which is "no matter what's happen, you must always having a smile with you".
then he further said that life is not always happy, but if you keep maintain a smile with you, it can make you to be active, energetic and positive even though you are angry at the moment.

after listened to the professor advice, he always keep that in his mind and this has make him eventually having excited feeling which lead him to have many idea to solve his problem.
moreover, he realized that the smile can also help to make situation better which he also don't understand why the power of smile can make him feel that he is more powerful.
when you facing the mirror and smile said that "no problem, everything will be fine", then it will eventually have many idea to solve problem and the mindset will not go to the negative side.
furthermore, he also feel that he was "lucky" to have many people to help him and having more friends.
have you ever wondered that actually it is just because a smile, it can make you having more people to willing help you because it can generate a harmony feelings.

furthermore, carrying a smile can make your friends will even treat you better and you will also have the power to influence the people around you to be happy.
a smile can help you solve many problem, a smile will make you having more confidence which eventually lead to happiness.
when you meet difficulties, DON'T EVER solve it alone and DON'T THINK about the things that make you unhappy.
you just need to think tomorrow will be better, everything can be solved, and having the great smile, which a Real Smile that come out deep bottom on your heart, then you life will be changed.
sorry for my poor English translation, because i just wish to share this great story since it was in Cantonese language.
anyways, i have uploaded the podcast of the story as below. (Note: off the Mixpod sound at the right hand side below)

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after listened to this story, i believe and realized the reason i having less friends because having less smile during my college life.
maybe this kind of attitude had caused many others unhappiness things happens.
on the other hand, i feel that my "sadness" on the past is just like having a drug addiction.
i feel that if i have been sad for 4 years, i think at least need 4 years to cure it back and changed to positive mindset.
well, i just started to "train" myself to smile in the mirror although it might sound stupid.
it seems that regret now also no use and guess just need to look forward ahead.
at last, don't forget to smile.smile, Smile, SMILE, SMILEEEEEEE~~~
=)

Can You Survive?

2012-01-28T20:58:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 1.20pm.
as i awaken, the weather was still cold although don't have air-cond and my friend still haven awaken.
therefore, i just try to sleep back but quite hard since i sleep until automatically wake up.
anyways, it was a great time to stay at the Gohtong Jaya Mawar apartments.
around 3pm i prepared myself because will be back Klang.
then we make a move at 3.50pm.
while passing by the Strawberry farm at the outside of the apartment, i did feel to go to have a visits but feel shy to ask.
during the journey back Klang, i have a great chat and information from friend story shared.

it seems that the culture of Australia people was different with us because their shop open until 5pm and seems having a not stressful life.
a friend shared a story that during the her shopping at Australia, she feel to buy a cloth but the time already 5pm and the staff just keep told her to come tomorrow.
i just feel maybe this is one of the reason why their currency because item is limited never afraid of not getting business.
on the other hand, another friend shared a very true story that the society nowadays was based on networking relationship and socialize.
it seems that most of the successful business is just focusing your core business which is quite related to family business.

honestly, i did envy many friend having successful family business.
furthermore, he say that the "information" was running too fast and it can be buy as long as you got the money.
the "information" i means was like a more trustable resource to earn more money and what's company currently having the best opportunity.
this also prove that why richer people will get richer where poor people will just continue with their poor life.
actually when think in a contrast, this statement also can say why happy people will become more happy where sad people will just continue with their sad life.
however, you still can get the "information" without using money too.

for example, when you know about 20 friends, almost 10 of them say the same thing of an opportunity, then the probability of the information will be true and you can ignore the minority people's opinion.
therefore it just back to the same things again where you need a lot of friends of "networking" in order to be successful in life.
suddenly i also recall back what my brother tell me yesterday that sometime you know about some information, just don't share with other people and it is wise to keep for yourself.
it was because sometime other people used money to get an "experience" but you get it FREE that make you will not appreciate about it.
overall i just feel so appreciate to listen so much story in life.

finally i arrived home at 5pm, mother cooked a wonderful lunch which have prawns vegetable, fish maw, clam with mushroom which is my favorite dishes.
after that, i just continue to use my computer to surf some information a while.
actually i have been "shoot" a lot from sister husband for not working and what he say was quite true also.
he say the best things for me to "really grow" was not having any support from parents and think a way to survive alone at the outside world.
at night, mother also cooked a delicious meal which is the "salty duck" that i like very much especially during Chinese New Year.
then i just took a nap because feel so tired after having meal.

the moment i woke up again was about 12am.
seriously i don't know how i can go back to sleep again after sleeping for so long.
anyways, brother also arrived at home at 1am from visiting friend house.
he told me that he has a friend had resigned from the full time work and fully focus on his own e-commerce job which related to food directory in Malaysia.
anyways, i just don't know what he really means by saying that.
on the other hand, i feel myself was quite fortunate when listened to a close friend story when compared to my "jobless life".
however, i did have a though that i don't even qualify for 1st floor of the "Husband For Sale" story that i share last time at the link >>> Here.

for now, i feel the most basic requirement for a useful man was to at least have a job.
this made me think about how "sucks" i am when thinking "her" a while.
honestly, looking those of "her" happy picture was quite a happy thing and i feel that i like her so much until now was just because of "her" smile was so sweet.
actually myself already have some answer about life where you need to be hardworking to earn money in order to have family.
no people will give a "damm" about what's happening in your life because it is your life and yourself need to take the initiative to keep changing the negative behavior.
in conclusion, i realized that this world was all about whether can you survive or not in this "cruel" society.
at last, just hope i can still survive on this "wonderful" world that fulls of challenge.
stay POSITIVE!
XD

Secondary Classmate Reunion Dinner 2012

2012-01-27T02:30:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 1.35pm.
honestly, i have forgot a bit what i doing during the moment since this blog post was updated on the following day.
if i am not mistaken, mother just cooked some simple dishes and i just continue my "jobless" life as searching information and look some news on the internet.
besides, i also repaired the bed with some hammer that caused by "accident" yesterday.
during the evening, my parent had gone out and luckily my brother still around.
therefore i can ask him fetch me to my secondary classmate reunion dinner 2012 at Restoran Imperial (皇廷大酒家) that near Bukit Tinggi.
it was because i feel it might be quite inconvenience to sit his car who seems fetching a girl.

around 6.30pm i prepared myself and packed some clothes because will be staying overnight at friend's apartment house at Genting Highlands.
i did feel happy when my brother help me comb a "yeng" hair which i normally did not do it and we make a move at 7pm.
during the moment at car, brother talk with me about something that i find meaningful.
he say that if he was rich, he will not tell his son about his richness until reached the age of 20++ because it can make his son appreciate more at that moment.
it is because he say nowadays many people was quite fortunate to have a "luxury" lifestyle and would not appreciate much of what they have.
finally i reached there around 7.35pm.

upon reached there, i saw some of the secondary classmate had arrived.
it was quite happy to see some classmate that did not attend the reunion gathering last time.
finally the reunion dinner started at 8.10pm and i enjoyed very much about the food although it cost RM70 per person.
besides, i also liked the Black Label beer because it taste sweeter.
then we just take some picture to keep as a memory.
it was so true and meaningful when our teacher gave a speech that it was not easy to have a reunion dinner after 5 years of graduation from secondary school since 2007.
although there might not have full attendance of 40+ people but it was already counted as a successful secondary gathering which have 30++ people.

the most special thing of the reunion was even we have only Malay classmate, but he still attend instead of others who say not free during the reunion.
overall the dishes was quite nice to eat but i feel it still lose to the restaurant Taman Rhasna.
anyways, below was the details of the restaurant.
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皇廷大酒家 Restoran Imperial
No. 4267, Wisma AMI,
Jalan Gambus 2, Taman Desawan,
41200 Klang, Selangor Darul Ehsan.________________________________
after that, i followed my friend car to Genting Highlands.

around 11.50pm we make a move from Klang.
during the journey to there, i was quite "shock" when my friend drove very fast which around 140~170kmj "chionging" to there.
finally we arrived there at 1am and meet other classmate.
for the first time i tried the Chocolate Banana milkshake at The Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf which located ground floor outside of the hotel.
it was quite nice because they did not contain any coffee since i dislike coffee taste.
moreover, if you have Citibank credit card, you can have a 20% discount but i still feel it was a little quite expensive for me since it cost RM11.60 for a small cup after the discount.
after that, we straight went to the Genting Casino Monte Carlo to play.

upon reach there, my friend went to do membership card and i just walk around there.
honestly, i still finding the casino dealer girl that leave me a strong impression but could not find her after walked almost whole casino.
anyways, i followed my friend play the "Three Picture" game.
before playing, i told myself if win RM50, i will not continue to play.
i was quite lucky because it did happen in just 20 minutes of time and i am able to control myself for not playing anymore after that.
then i just follow my friend and see them bet and i was quite shock when one of the friend won RM3,000++ by playing the Poker Stud.
finally we make a move from there at 7am after whole night no sleep and went to friend's apartment.
the apartment was quite nice and i just like it.
overall today was having quite a happy day.
=D

Journey 2 The Mysterious Island 3D

2012-01-26T11:17:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 1pm.
seriously i have a dream again and this time the dream was about "18+" things but i did not participate and just can "see".
really don't know why nowadays i always dreaming when sleeping although long time did not have any dream.
anyways, it was quite a nice "imaginative dream".
mother just cooked some simple dish during the afternoon and i was quite wondering because it seems that every year the dish that mother cooked seems have been scheduled with the same.
around 2.30pm my secondary friends phoned and will came to my house in a short time.
therefore i just prepare myself and await their arrival.

it seems that quite a number of people reached my house and i was glad to see them although my family did not celebrate this year due to grandmother pass away.
i was quite envy when my friend drive his Peugeot RCZ sport car came and it looks so beautiful while i still wondering when i can have the chance to buy it myself one day.
then i phoned some other secondary classmate but it seems that they did not free.
therefore we head to another friend house at Bukit Raja to play his boardgame.
during the moment at there, i was quite enjoy with the three time of boardgame which is Hands Up, Dixit and a "animal shout water" game.
the board game that i most enjoy was the Dixit because it was a story teller based game which require the player to tell a story with full of imagination guessing around.

then we gamble a while and i just lost RM1 in total since my gamble amount was small.
around 8pm we make a move to have dinner at the Mamak nearby.
we chatted about gathering dinner and i feel as time goes by, there will be lesser people joining.
after that, we went to Bukit Tinggi to check out some movie to watch.
upon arrived there, it seems that most of the movie has did not have preferable place.
finally we decided to watch Journey 2 The Mysterious Island in 3D that cost about RM19 because the seat was quite favorable although i not very like 3D movie.
on the other hand, i saw many Klang friend at there and did think about "her" when saw the friend that she used to go out with was around.
anyways, just told myself to not think anymore further after that.

besides, i also get some knowledge about friend's 18+ things and i just wish to keep my "V" to a very special person.
after that, we stayed at car to chit chat a while waiting the movie start at 11.55pm.
somehow just listened a lot of story of other friends.
it seems that it was quite true that the most "profitable" way to get rich was by investing property and Forex.
although it might be risky, but it's the only way to "win" people in a short period of time.
however, without money, talking anything now will be useless.
around 11.30pm we went back to the TGV cinema and i just bought the sweet corn with a drink as usual every time before going in.

the synopsis of the movie was as below.
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Young Sean Anderson receives a coded distress signal from a mysterious island where no island should exist.
It's a place of strange life forms, mountains of gold, deadly volcanoes, and more than one astonishing secret.
Unable to stop him from going, Sean's new stepfather, Hank, joins the quest.
Together with a helicopter pilot and his beautiful, strong-willed daughter, they set out to find the island, rescue its lone inhabitant and escape before seismic shockwaves force the island under the sea and bury its treasures forever.
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well, you can watch the movie trailer at the link >>> Here.
after watching the movie, i feel it was quite touch when it the father run back to the mountains of gold in hope can send her daughter to college.
overall i would rate the movie as 3 out of 5 stars and the storyline just okay only for me.
after the movie, my friend fetched me home.
during the moment at car, my friend offered me a job which is selling car.
however, i still thinking whether want to work or not because i am not good at selling especially need to meet "real people" and it was quite true when he say got work rather than sit at home.
finally i reached my home at 2am.
however, it seems that the keys to the inside doors has changed.

then i just phoned my brother and luckily he still at home and opened the door for me.
while on the way to bath, i just realized my very first angpao that received from friends house this afternoon had suddenly went missing.
somehow i just feel quite unlucky when realized it.
anyways, tomorrow will be a great day because will be having secondary classmate reunion dinner at a restaurant that i wish to go long time ago.
besides, i might staying at Genting Highlands after that and quite excited to look forward on it.
somehow i did hope to see the "Casino Dealer Girl" again that left me a strong memory during my first visits at there.
heheheheheheheeeeee~~~
=)

Laziness Kills

2012-01-25T10:13:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 12.50pm.
as i awakens, there is still a very weird dream i dreamed and can't forget it until now.
in the dream, i dreamed that "she" sit 4 space right beside me with friends at the TBR mamak stall watching a movie.
the thing i feel weird was TBR mamak stall where got cinema and why "she" suddenly appeared in my dream after for so long of time had passed.
somehow when thinking back now really feel funny to have such dream.
anyways, mother just cooked "popia" as our lunch.
during the afternoon, i just spend some time doing some internet stuff and hear some "chan fong story" again before going out with my parents.

actually i don't feel to go out but got "a little scold" by brother and parents for keep staying at home.
around 4pm we make a move and went to the relative house at Bukit Kemuning.
i just watching television during my moment at there.
one the other hand, the aunty talked with me about my future plan.
honestly, this was the toughest question i has been wondering.
it was because now i have a little feeling of not going to UK 3 month degree due to my own personalities problem although had paid the registration fee.
she has been keep advising for me to plan wisely such as having a goal and having plan A, plan B or plan C to achieve it just like what i heard from the FM DJ.

moreover, she has also shared that my uncle has been working very hard at the past although he come out after Form 5 during the olden days.
then he has taken 7 years to complete his degree certificate on law because want to have the same qualification with his friends.
however, the most important question in the end is whether you are hardworking enough or not for succeed your goal and also said that when there's a will, there's will be a way.
when i asked myself in heart, i did feel i can consider a "ultra lazy" and seriously i know laziness kills me if i still don't wish to change.
throughout the moment when chatting with the aunt about my future, i start to recall many memory of myself at the past.

after that, my mother want to go to her sister house at Damai.
during the journey at there, my mother asked me whether want to buy the "Ba Gua" (dried meat) when passing Petaling SS2.
it was so coincidence that the shop was also one of the advertisement i saw on the internet which is "Went Heong" at Jalan Imbi and taken an advertisement picture of it as below.however, i had left out another part of the first part "永香肉问 Yok Man 一代宗师" video at the link >>> Here.
after bought the dried meat, we went to buy some food at Ampang Tradition Yong Tau Foo which just nearby there to bring to the aunty house.
upon reached to the aunty house, we just have our dinner there.

after that, father drive us to Pavillion to see the "Dragon" decoration.
on the journey to there, it seems that the road has pass by Kepong area and i saw some dessert shop that i go with my classmate last time.
somehow it just make me recall back some memories again.
around 9.30pm we reached Pavillion and i just taken a Dragon at there picture as below.besides, i also helped to take some picture of my parents although there was full of people.
while walking out from the Pavillion, it seems that there is a roll of Buddy Bears design from almost around the world and i just taken the Malaysia Buddy Bear as picture below.on the other hand, i also realized most of the couple or family there seems to be beautiful girls with "old" uncle.
somehow this also show the "culture of life" that i feel and just tell myself don't think so many things again.
finally i arrived my home at 11.30pm and feel tired but quite happy.
in conclusion, the most strong impact that i have was "Laziness Kills" many things.
at last, there is a picture that i feel quite similar to me said that "sometimes i want to give up everything, then i remember that i do nothing" as below.XD

Interview Testing

2012-01-24T06:56:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 1.35pm.
it seems that the sore throat disease that i have has miracally cured without taking any medicine from doctor and i was quite happy about it.
during the afternoon, mother cooked "Mee Suah" as our lunch.
then i just continue my happy moment playing dota and watched some movie.
besides, the most happy thing during my Chinese new year was eating "Ba kua" and drinking Shandy while enjoying the air-cond.
moreover, i just liked the radio program again because can heard many different type of story.
around 7.10pm we make a move and went to restoran Seafoods Happiness to have our dinner.
i just liked the red wine "lala" (Clam Shell) at the restaurant there.

on the other hand, it was so coincidence that i saw the Aunty that knocked my sister car during my accident last time just sit behind our table.
anyways, i shouldn't think of the things that had past.
when i reach home, brother just asked me about the "interview testing" that i asked him to test me by using the company he worked.
it was because he was the human resource department and have experience in screening candidate who finding job.
during at the first trial, i was quite playful and my brother asked me to be serious although it was just a testing.
seriously i did not prepare well and he asked me to try second time after let me train a bit.

after the second time, he told me all the things i need to change.
first of all, when the interviewer asked briefly introduce yourself, you don't need to mention your whole address that you're currently staying.
next, you need to further elaborate every question that the interviewee ask.
for example, when he asked what activities/club do you join at your study time and i just answer Toastmaster club.
well, you just need to tell more about what activities you doing there and will gain what knowledge after joined.
furthermore, the most important computer skill that interviewer will ask is Microsoft Word, Excel and Powerpoint instead of the graphic skill or HTML program skill.

it will be only useful for those "higher" software unless the job you applying was related to it.
besides, i feel that it was quite true when he say that every small details or body language can show about your personalities.
honestly, i has been "shooted" badly during the advice but it was quite true.
he said that the "Siu Yeh Cai" (少爷子) attitude is the things that most hate by interviewer.
seriously i feel that getting a job is just like chasing a girl because you need to do everything to make your interviewer like you or else you will never success finding a job that can last long.
honestly, i started to understand and realized all the things i encounter last time during my college life.
it was because i keep judge on my point of view instead of asking the real things happen.

i feel that i finally found the original problem was started from myself and feel completely lost.
the feeling of "realization" now is totally so "sucks" because it is already too late to know now.
on the other hand, i feel regret when did not think further because now seems to fail my advance diploma paper and now need to "lie" the future interviewer that i had graduate.
somehow i also feel the decision go to UK for me was like a waste money because the chance should give to people who have more qualify than me to go.
anyways, when thinking in a positive side, i can have a better feelings that luckily "she" did not choose a guy like me.
besides, my brother told me that looking at my condition now, i should be try to find more job to interview because i will only learn when encounter with a real interview.

somehow i did feel that life was just about "selling yourself" to people in a legal way.
although he say it might quite "fake" if you did not some skills, you just need to ensure yourself that you definitely have the confident to join the company you choose.
this feeling to me was like no matter you use what method to chase a girl, as long you get the heart of the girl, you will eventually win all in the end.
maybe this might be what my friend's mean that "No money also can chase girl one laaa".
at last, my brother keep stress that there is no "one man show" or "working alone" because the society is all about teamwork, teamwork and teamwork.
actually life can consider fair because everyone is given 24 hours everyday where it just a matter whether you have fully utilize it or not right?
overall today gained many experience from him and feel happy.
XD

Happy Chinese New Year 2012

2012-01-23T09:38:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 12.30pm.
it seems that today was the exact day of Chinese New Year.
therefore i would like to wish you all a Happy Chinese New Year 2012 which is the year of dragon and i believe most of the people will like dragon because it is so powerful.
honestly, today was just a normal day for me although it was a very big day for others as a Chinese people.
after having my lunch, i just spend my time searching information and playing games which "enjoying like a boss" although knowing doing this kind of thing will not earning anything.
well, i just would like to share a very touching video commercial by BERNAS about "Family Reunion Dinner" for Chinese New Year.

i liked the description of the video which say that Chinese New Year is always a time for reunion.
whatever differences we may have as a family, there's always a way to overcome them, so let's come together as one family during reunion dinner because after all, family is forever.
anyways, below was the video of the link and i almost dropped tears at the end of the movie.

somehow just found myself how lucky i am in life.
around 4pm my relative came my house to have steamboat and i just went down serve the drinks and went up.
seriously i just feel myself like a "internet savvy" guy.
until 7pm i went down again to have a little steamboat as my dinner because i feel shy.
on the other hand, mother asked me whether want to go to a relative house but i rejected.

therefore i was "Home Alone" during this exact day of Chinese New Year.
then i just listen on the Chan Fong story again about "大城心事" (City Heart) where many people share their story on the radio.
seriously i STRONGLY RECOMMEND any person who so FREE TILL NOTHING TO DO to listen it's podcast at the link >>> http://www.chanfong.com/programList.do?page_num=2&pid=27.
seriously i realized that i am not the only one who encounter similar things in this world.
when i share this to one of my close friend, he say that sometime the things shared by Chan Fong DJ was not very true and i quite agree because everyone have their point of view.
however, i also feel that listened too much in a day will become "negative" again.

it was because realizing so many things that it caused by my own fault instead of thinking others people fault.
for example, when i was "emoing" all the while, others guy already used their extra time chasing girl and have those "things" already.
in the end, the most important was the action you told by OC (blogger) last time about me that i don't even take the initiative to be so call "bad guy".
furthermore, a guy just need to be more "flower mouth" (say all those beautiful things) although it sounds fake, be brave and most important have confident when chasing girl.
well, i just told myself it's not late again because i can think in this way that i had "win" many other guy who face such things at their 30-40 age.

anyways, i just hope can share of all the story said by him.
sometime you just don't need to get recognition from other people about what you do, as long as you feel what you doing was good, then it is good.
during my night, i still leveling the game a while and watched some "坷垃傳奇" movie although it looks childish.
besides, i would like to share a meaningful picture about "it's not hard to find someone who tells you they love you, it's hard to find someone who actually means it" as below.finally my parents and brother reach home at 12.30am.
when i told my brother about the things i listened, he just said "aiyah, you know so many meaningful thing also no use la, because you also no do what their advice" which quite true.
in conclusion, those people who can really "put down" will not feel sadness because only people who still carry hope will be sad which i found quite true.
at last, i think myself will be more happy in future!
=D

Father's Side Reunion Dinner 2012

2012-01-22T08:15:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 11.20am.
it seems that now i can confirm i totally have the sore throat disease because my throat was very pain as i awakens.
anyways, i just keep drink on water in hope can cure this sickness.
after that, i helped a bit mother about the ancestor prayers thing and we started to pray a while.
during the afternoon, i just have vegetarian as my lunch.
around 4pm brother asked me to buy coconut water since i have sore throat too.
while waiting the seller to "cut" the coconut, i just wondering whether he can earn a lot by just selling each piece of coconut that cost about RM2.50 because in order to earn RM100 per day, he need to sell about 40 piece of coconut which is haven reduce the cost.

when i reach home, i just continue to leveling the game a while.
around 6pm i prepared myself because will be going to father's side reunion dinner which is at one of my father's brother house in Bayu Perdana.
we reached there around 8pm and i helped to carry in some food.
the reunion dinner style was about the Pot Luck style where each of the relative bring two dishes to the relative house.
besides, the dinner started with the "Lou Yee Sang" ceremony as usual and continue with those variety of food.
well, i just enjoyed the food especially the fish maw with mushroom and chicken that prepared by my mother.

during the moment at there, i was just a listener although my cousin was there.
on the other hand, i was envy again about my cousin brother about his successful career by investing in property.
for example, he invested in a condominium house which cost about RM1,000,000+ at KL area with 3 of his friend.
now the price of the house has raised until RM1,600,000 and he just get 30% of the earning since it was a sharing profit.
although it might look less for him, but i feel to me it is a lot of money and i am sure will be the happiest guy when i got such amount.
moreover, i also listened similar things during my tutorial class last time.

looking at this incident somehow just prove that why people say when you earn your "First Gold, the next "gold" will eventually just be a piece of cake.
well, you just need to be "working smart" just like what others people said that "study smart".
somehow i just feel myself seems miss and lost a lot of things.
after that, we just "gamble" some blackjack game with relative and i just lost RM3 on it.
on the other hand, it seems that there is still a few relative give us "Ang Pau" because they might forget that grandmother pass away few month ago and we are not allow to give the red packet.
around 10.30pm we make a move and reach my house at 11.10pm.
when the clock turns to 12am, it seems that my hometown has been "boomed" with a lot of fireworks as usual for every year.

honestly, i did think back some of my olden day where i was able to play fireworks with some relative since we are still kid at that time.
however, it seems that no longer we have such activities as we grow older.
perhaps this was one of the growing stage that all of us will pass.
later on, i was quite happy when received some SMS from some friend that i did not expect that they will send me back the wishing message.
actually i have review back of my 2011 last year post and it seems i was getting better also last year post seems quite negative.
after that, i just check on my email and received "BMW X6 Concept Car Winning" as picture below.actually i have received a lot of this kind email and how great it is real right but the sad case was 99.9% of them was fake email that just want your information to sell to third parties.
anyways, this year i will keep try to make myself more on the positive side.
Happy Chinese Reunion dinner all friends~
XD

Mother Side Reunion Dinner 2012

2012-01-21T11:32:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 11.40am.
as i awakens, i feel a little sore throat and having flu.
then i just took some "herbs medicine" in hope that can cure the disease.
during the afternoon, i just have some chicken rice as my lunch.
i was planning to read the iPhone application development books but the internet entertainment has influence me again to play.
on the other hand, i did help a bit on cleaning the air conditioner and the fan.
around 7pm we prepared ourselves because want to go to mother side reunion dinner.
we make a move at 7.30pm and arrived the PNB Darby Park at 8.10pm.
the reunion dinner started with "Lou Yee Sang" which is a chinese tradition.

then the following dish was about shark fin soup, chicken, prawn, fish, sea cucumber and etc.
brother has shared to me on how to differentiate a real shark fin soup or fake one which i quite wondering long time ago whether i have eaten a real one before.
he said that the real shark fin have a one sharp curve at top and bottom was flat where the fake shark fin have two sharp end on it's top and bottom as picture below.besides, i also not sure his concept was right or wrong as told by his colleague.
anyways, i was not encourage you all to eat more shark fin because it was a "chinese culture" to have such dishes on every reunion.
moreover, the shark is almost extinct and it was quite cruel to see the process of how fisherman "killing" those sharks.

on the other hand, one of my uncle shared some of the red wine knowledge with us.
i start to realize that why older red wine seems to taste nicer when i tried the 2006 and another 2010 year red wine.
furthermore, the uncle also said a very meaningful thing about the "Important of Having Reunion Dinner" because it has been started few thousand years ago before any religion started.
he said that sometime he feel pity to see some people "having reunion dinner" alone although they was rich.
honestly, i did think about my ex-classmate at college because feel that might not invited for reunion dinner since i have changed to another class at my last semester.
seriously i the "realization" of being "childish" attitude was quite "sucks".

when thinking "rationally" back, i just feel to say sorry but it was just too late to correct it back all the mistaken things i do or words i said to some of my ex-classmate last time.
perhaps i should rename this blog title as "A Growing Process of A Childish Kid" instead of a growing teenager diary.
actually i did not enjoy very much about the food because still having flu disease and it was quite "sucks" to have such disease especially during Chinese New Year.
anyways, i just told myself to be satisfied can have such a wonderful meal.
around 10.20pm we make a move from there.
during the time at car, brother talked about my "finding job" issues and say a lot of fact whichs is quite true.

he said that most of the people who born in 1990 and above seems to be "rich".
it was because when he recruit people at his workplace, it seems that most of the fresh graduate keep concern about salary at first and did not want to work when offered about RM2,100 because they feel the price did not suite with their qualification.
moreover, father also said i should work any job because back in 1970 which is his olden days, graduate who have job already the most happiest thing in life.
actually this thing i had been heard from my college tutor last time during the tutorial class and seems it's real.
besides, i also realized that the pole lamp beside the highway have changed from orange colour to white colour.

my brother just said that each lamp will cost around RM1,000 at least and you can guess how many money has been "used" on it.
i just feel it was a very big opportunity for the developer to get this job done because it will definitely earn a lot when you can see how many orange lamp still around.
finally i arrived back home at 11pm.
then i just continue "leveling" the the online game a while and updated this blog post.
honestly, i did look back on my post last year and guess what?
it was quite a similar things happen at the link >>> Mother Side Reunion Dinner 2011.
while looking the comments of last year, it seems that 1 year passed so fast and i was appreciate that you guys who supported me all the time by giving me "positive" comments.

THANKS YOU ALL !!!

in conclusion, i just looking forward to have a better year in 2012.
=D

Awesome Hotels Around The World

2012-01-20T11:21:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 12.10pm.
after that, brother phoned and say will be fetching me back today.
anyways, i just have some biscuits as my lunch because no appetite to eat.
during the afternoon, i spend some time watching the "坷垃傳奇" movie and played some game.
besides, i also search some information as usual.
anyways, just feel to share one of the amazing picture about awesome hotels around the world as picture below.

somehow i just hope that one day i will be able to experience most of the hotel above.
around 7.30pm i went to take bus to go to KL Festival mall because have the feeling of want to eat sushi since it might be last day at KL house.

during the moment awaiting bus, it seems that Tarc college has decorated with Chinese New Year lantern at the outside.
after waited almost 30 minute at the bus stop, i can't stand it anymore and decided to take taxi to there.
i reached there around 8.20pm and walked some restaurant although my first intention was to have sushi either at Sakae Sushi or Sushi King restaurant.
however, after think for some time, i found there is some restaurant that i wish to try before leaving KL house.
one of it was the Oyster King restaurant that located beside Sushi King at the ground floor.
therefore i just went there to try after walked for some time.

well, i ordered the set menu which cost RM13.50 that included a fried oyster, a soup and a limited choice of drinks although they did not charge any service tax.
when the food arrived, i feel the portion was quite small as picture below.somehow just feel that Penang oyster is still the best.
after that, i just head to the Sakura Kristal Cafe restaurant because it was also one of the restaurant that i want to try since i was not very full.
during the moment at there, i ordered a Claypot "Yee Mee" (noodles) and a cup of chinese tea as picture below.the food price i ordered cost about RM9 and RM2 for the tea but they have service charge.
overall the taste just okay only for me but i did not finish it since i was so full.

maybe i shouldn't try two restaurant at the same time because at first, i feel it was more worth to eat this two dish when compared with just 1 meal of sushi for the total price if count with the food satisfaction.
after that, i walked some time to the bus stop although there has some tiny rains.
upon reach my house, i just use my computer a while and started to prepared my stuff for backing KL.
around 10pm my phone ring about the reminder i set every week's Friday to listen Chan Fong program at 988 radio about the "大城心事" at 10pm-1am.
i did tried to phone but it seems that the line was very busy and realized some people has tried almost 100 time just to get into the line.

after that, my brother arrived at 12am and i packed the computer, clothes and some other stuff into his car.
during the journey back Klang, he shared some working story with me.
he say that the most important thing in working life was to be initiative and hardworking.
guess he was indirectly "shooting" me when he say that because looking at my behavior somehow can determine my future because i was quite lazy person.
finally i arrived my hometown at 1am and moved those stuff to my house.
after everything has been settle down, it was already 2.10am.
somehow i just feel that my time seems to be not enough to use.
honestly, i did feel myself quite "useless" in some way for not earning some money because i believe most of my friend has started to do some part time job or doing something useful.
i just comforted myself to be positive again when i have such negative thought about myself.
anyways, i just feel i was a little better than the last time of myself.
=D

Stop SOPA and PIPA

2012-01-19T09:34:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 12.20pm.
the first thing i told myself was should be satisfy about my life because can sleep until "automatically wake up" although student life ending.
after that, i just went to have chicken rice as my lunch.
during the afternoon, i just went to search some information again.
the first thing i saw was the Facebook founder Mark Zuckerberg posted a status "The internet is the most powerful tool we have for creating a more open and connected world. We can't let poorly thought out laws get in the way of the internet's development. Facebook opposes SOPA and PIPA, and we will continue to oppose any laws that will hurt the internet."
at first i was still "blurr" about it but get more clearer after search some related information.

well, SOPA actually stand for "Stop Online Piracy Act" and PIPA stand for "Protect IP Act".
it was about something know as "Anti-Piracy Bills" that would censor the usage of web and impose harmful regulations on American business.
i just feel that if they really allow this laws, the "Freedom of speech" in the internet atmosphere will no longer be more "Freedom" as we want.
on the other hand, millions of people signed onto Google's petition to against it.
among Google's allies were Facebook, AOL, Wikipedia, Amazon, Twitter, and Firefox.
moreover, hundreds of individuals, groups, and web sites has sent out their own petitions by writing letters to the U.S. government or went black in protest for the anti-piracy laws.
anyways, it seems that the "SOPA and PIPA" issues has now become a hot topic on the internet.

there is one Youtube link was quite nice to share about the "PROTECT IP/SOPA WILL BREAK the Internet! Worldwide Protest Jan 18, 2012" as below.

after that, i just continue to play my game since it was quite nice.
around 8pm i went to have my dinner at Ampau Enterprise.
when i reach home, i just research some jobs in Jobstreet website.
somehow feel quite down when did not get reply from another company after i had send my resume to them 2 days ago.
at once i did asked myself whether i have the capabilities or not to work for others.
later on, i just went to read on the "SAMS Teach Yourself iPhone Application Development" books that i bought yesterday.

well, i just read until page number 26 out of 658 page and stopped because feel it might spoil my interest of reading.
the is one quotes i like from the author at the dedication session about the book say that "This book is dedicated to everyone who makes me smile, even if only on occasion. Thanks for keeping me stay sane during long nights of typing."
besides, i found that actually you can buy it at a cheaper price for second hand of the book at Amazon website at the link >>> Here.
while reading the book, it seems that the most basic requirement to develop for all the application was to have at least Mac book with snow leopard version installed before proceeding to chose whether want to pay the $99 USD membership fee or not.

honestly, the reason i want to learn was because knowing the opportunity behind after i had successfully develop the apps.
however, i feel that studying it was just like learning totally new "language" where they used Xcode and focus on Programming C+.
on the other hand, i did have a "funny" thought of myself that i seems to have a "special ability" where i can know the type of printing machines used to print the books.
somehow it also recalls me back some memory of my secondary life.
anyways, i just feel that why sometime we just can't envy other's people for being so successful because they had pay a lot of effort behind to learn something which is complicated.
in conclusion, i also support "99" for stop SOPA and PIPA issue.
overall today mood was just okay and will be back hometown tomorrow again after being so "funny" behavior for staying at KL alone.
~.~

Borders Malaysia RM200 Book Voucher

2012-01-18T13:48:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 11.40am.
after that, my ex-housemate phoned me to have lunch together since he had "put an aeroplane" yesterday night.
while walking to have our lunch at the nearby shop, he shared quite a "scary+pervert" incident appear in TBR about a "underwear thief".
the "scary" things i feel was about the thief "cut few stripe" on the underwear and put it back on the same place after found out that it was a men underwear.
seriously what kind of "weird" story also can happen in this world.
anyways, i went back home after that while waiting my friend to came for using the RM200 book voucher given by the government.

around 1.30pm he came and we went to the Mc Donalds at Melati Utama to have lunch.
actually i had eat my lunch but i still ate for the second time since there is still a promotion for the McD lunch hour.
somehow i just shared some story and having great conversation at there with my friend.
after that, we went to the Borders Malaysia at Berjaya Time Square for spending the book voucher and reached at 3.20pm.
the first thing that i saw at the counter was about the small sign board showing benefits of spending RM50 BBIM book voucher as below.drop by any Borders store and spend a minimum of RM100 (2x RM50 BB1M vouchers) to receive a Free Borders Rewards Card membership and Free Starbucks Tall-sized beverage.

then i just look on the book i interested which about computer stuff.
besides, the Borders staff was quite polite and can unwrap the wrapped book when i having few book choices to select.
on the other hand, i did have the feeling of like "buy things without looking price" during my moment at there because the voucher seems like "unlimited money".
anyways, i just used RM127 to buy the iPhone application development programming book in hope i can learn something new and the rest of the money to buy stationery.
actually there is some rules need to follow when using the BB1M voucher where you can only spend RM10 on each RM50 voucher for stationery. (not sure other bookstore is same or not)
moreover, it require the owner of the voucher to use it which is not transferable .

during my checkout, i just need to verify the voucher by providing my Identity card.
after paying at Borders bookstore, you can eventually get the FREE Any Starbucks Beverage (12oz, Tall Size valid till 31 December 2012) as picture below.furthermore, you can also get the Borders rewards card membership as picture below.one thing i feel that their "Marketing Strategy" was quite good when the membership come with two small card to be share with your friend.
well, the benefits of the using the membership card was getting 5% discount on all magazines and 10% of different type of category books.
the great things was i feel they seems to have "partnering" with Starbucks because you can have 10% discount on Starbucks food and beverage on selected outlets.

after that, we went to walk around the shopping mall.
it seems that there was an anniversary warehouse sales for Subzero clothes and pants.
i was quite happy when bought a jeans that cost only RM39 instead of RM189 for normal price.
although i not sure whether it really cost that expensive on the normal day but i just feel so happy when gained a great discount.
maybe the reason they give out such discount was due to the limited size of the jeans because at first i plan to buy a more beautiful design but don't have the size i want.
around 7.20pm we went to the Lot 10 to have our dinner but feel just enough full.
besides, i also tried the "Tan Tart" (egg tart) and the salmon sushi nearby there.
around 9.30pm we make a move from there.

during the moment at car, i just have some great conversation with my friend.
i seems to be more positive thinking although the "negative" one keep coming in.
perhaps i start to understand the keys to happiness was to be satisfy with what you have.
on the other hand, it seems that positive thoughts can lead to positive actions and feeling whereby if your first thought was it will be going a great day, eventually it will be.
finally i arrived back home around 11pm.
overall today i feel that i had spend a lot of money but quite happy with it.
guess that's all for my voucher usage as picture below.after this, i think will be no more spending for my "entertainment fee".
later on, i just continue play a while of the game with my friend.
at last, just hope can "faster" find a job to work.
XD

Glory Destiny Online Malaysia

2012-01-17T19:59:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 11.10am.
well, the first thing i told myself to do was to be happy no matter doing what.
around 12.30pm i went to have "Wan Tan Mee" as my lunch and just like it.
during the afternoon, my secondary friend recommended me an online game to play that is "Glory Destiny Online".
actually i don't like to play the game that need to use "hand" to fighting monster.
however, the cute graphic of the game has attracted me to play.
moreover, it was just launch in Malaysia although previously it had launched in Taiwan server.
while playing the game, i found that it was quite user friendly because there is guide on how to do those quest.

anyways, i would like to share some of the cute screen shot of the online game as below.seriously i just like those "cute" games very much.
well, you can download at the game at the link >>> http://gd.koramgame.com.
on the other hand, the job that i had applied did not have any job available now and i feel quite down about it.
after that, i just use my evening time to edit my resume and resend to another company.
somehow i just feel say and do is totally two different things when i hope can start work at the first of February.
around 8pm i went to Mali to have "Nasi Lemak" to have my dinner.
then i just continue to play the game.

overall i spend almost my whole day on this although i know it might be a "waste" of not spending the time wisely by playing game.
maybe it was because not much activity.
honestly, playing games somehow can help to forget some others negative things.
besides, there is an interesting status i feel to share about which is "the sign of maturity is not when you start speaking big things, but actually it is, when you start understanding small things" by a friend.
later on at midnight, i still continue playing the game.
guess that's all for today activities and it was quite fun.
=D

Husband For Sale

2012-01-16T10:30:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 11am.
actually i still feel tired after wake up but just told myself no matter what must wake up because i know i will eventually sleep back as i sleep back on the bed.
after checking all the emails and some online things, i went to have my lunch at 1pm and feel that there was so less people at TBR shop.
upon reached home, i just continue to do my online stuff and see whether have any opportunity.
besides, i was happy that i finally "touch" back my guitar after abandon it for so long.
however, i feel my hand was quite pain when pressing those steel string.
moreover, i feel great when listened the music loudly whereby no one around in the home and it was like "Home KTV" feelings.

after that, i played a match of Dota with my friend since it was holiday now.
around 7pm i went to have my dinner with one of my ex-housemate who stay beside my house.
i was quite happy that i can share some story i heard nowadays with him although there is still some "lagging sense" due to my less talking personality.
in fact, i feel that if i have mastered all the story communication skills, i might eventually get noticed by sharing the story with my ex-classmate last time.
on the other hand, he also asked me to try develop a simple game using flash and test on the phone since my hope was to able make least one software in iPhone.
while reached home, i went to research and search some information again.
anyways, i would like to share another story by Chan Fong DJ.

the title of the story was "Husband For Sale" (丈夫出售) and below was the details of the story.
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there is a shop called as "Husband shop" which eventually for women to choose their husband.
however, this shop has some strict rules that need to follow as below.
1) You can only visits one time in your whole lifetime.
2) There is 6 floor and upon moving up every floor, the price to pay will be higher.
3) When you went up the next floor, you can't walk down to the previous floor.
4) When you finish "buy husband" at the floor you selected, you must immediately move to the exit at the left hand side on every floor.
one day, there is a woman went to this shop to find her husband.
when she reached the first floor, there is a sign board written that "in this floor, the man have a job" and here ends the description.

therefore she just when to second floor because feel that it is quite easy to find a man with a job.
upon reached the second floor, the sign board written that "in this floor, the man have job and love children."
therefore she feel that it is a bit okay because it is not easy to find a man who like children.
however, she feel that there will be a better one since she was just at the second floor and just head to the third floor.
when arrived on the third floor, the sign board written that "in this floor, the man have job, love children and good looking face."
then she feel it was quite okay and the price was affordable but still thinking because not very satisfy since she was just at the third floor and decided went to the fourth floor.

when she reach the fourth floor, the sign board written that "in this floor, the man have job, love children, a good looking face like a celebrity and even can help you do housework."
then she almost shouted when looking the men offered because not much men will willing to do housework when at home.
after look on the price, she feel it was a little expensive but still worth to buy.
during the moment she want to pay at the counter, she think again because now only at fourth floor and it was the offer was good.
therefore she decided to go for fifth floor and willing to pay much higher.
when she reached the fifth floor, she shouted happily with job and said that this floor that she want so much.

it is because the sign board written that "in this floor, the man have job, love children, a good looking face like a celebrity, can help you do housework and very romantic."
upon saw the "romantic" word, she eventually feel so happy because heard most of the woman say that men don't know how to be romantic after married.
therefore she decided to buy but when at the counter, she still wondering again because feel the sixth floor will be a precious since the fifth floor offer so good and decided to go to the sixth floor.
when she reach the sixth floor, she was stunned when saw the sign board written that "you are the 314,560,120,000th who visits here and there is no men in this floor, the exit at the right side."
this story used woman finding men as an example but it is totally equal for both gender.

it is because most of the time we always want to find out the best things in our life.
everyday, no matter girl or guy also faced the some situation which wanted to chase the best things in our life.
does the world really have the best, therefore you just have to ask yourself whether you are one of the best?
anyways, i have uploaded the podcast of the story but it is in Cantonese language again. (Note: off the Mixpod sound at the right hand side below)

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after listening to this podcast, i did asked myself that does i too "choosy" for chasing girl which caused myself not tried any relationship before?
maybe this is also the reason why others can be so fast in a relationship after breakup because they want to choose the best and there is no right or wrong in this kind of things.

somehow i did recall one of my secondary teacher also said that the first guy that she like will not end up being as her husband at the end.
seriously i just started to understand this theory although heard it long time ago.
in conclusion, i feel the video try to stress on to be satisfied with the choice and don't be so greedy right?
later on, i played Dota again with my secondary friends.
actually i plan to do other useful things but just end up enjoying playing games.
anyways, i feel myself started to appreciate my life although it was quite a bored one.
although it might took time to be more positive back after being so negative for the past, i believe one day i can overcome it.
=D

Little Stones In Your Bag

2012-01-15T09:31:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 12.20pm.
then i just have the "mihun" as "breakfast" and helped my sister to vacuum her car.
after that, i just continue to use my computer to search some information.
around 3pm we make a move where drive by me to The Store which also known as Shaw Centre Point Klang for having lunch and buy some things.
honestly, i will always passing by "her" house because the road is the fastest to town.
we went to the Pizza Hut Klang at first for having our lunch and ordered the Golden Fortune Pizza which seems the latest pizza on the town.
anyways, it was quite delicious and cost about RM49.90 for the set as picture below.then we head back to the shopping mall to continue buy some thing.

however, it seems that there is not much option available to choose after shop for some time and we head to Jusco Bukit Raja.
during the moment at there, i just went to Popular bookstore for look on some books while my parent went to buy their things.
it seems that the RM200 book voucher can be used at there when i saw others people used it at the counter.
besides, i found a book which is quite interest to share about which is "Men's Seven Enemy" (男人的七个敌人) and it say about something related to "lonely".
anyways, the books cost about RM42.50 but i did not buy as picture below.after some moment passed, i go meet up with my parents.

it seems that there was about 50~70% discount on Padini clothes but i just bought one and another pieces on different place.
around 7pm we make a move from there but the my sister could not start because i forgot to turn off the front light.
luckily my brother was around and it was my first time to learn how to use the "Car Start Jumper" as picture below.finally i arrived back home and mother cooked some delicious food such as the salt duck, curry head fish and some fish ball vegetables.
after that, i just edit some resume things and hope can get a job at February.
then i plan to follow my sister along back to my KL house because has left out something.

around 10pm we make a move and i arrived RapidKL Asia Jaya LRT at 10.50pm.
during the time at train, i just heard some worker talk about their working stress life and gained some of their experience.
finally i reached Wangsa Maju LRT station at 11.40pm.
when i reach my TBR house, it seems that there was no people at downstair but luckily still got few people at upstair.
anyways, i just continue to use my computer to search some information online.
there is one story i would like to share about by Chan Fong DJ which title "Little Stones In Your Bag" (背包内的石头) which related which stubborn attitude.
below was the details story. (Sorry for my poor English)

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stubborn can make many people unhappy, but how do you put it down?
well, the story goes like this, there is a professor in a college found that the 18-19++ teenager and youngster seems to have dislike each other feelings.
therefore the professor told the student that let's us do an special experiment.
first of all, the student need to find a bag, then write down the unhappiness feeling about the people they dislike name in a piece of paper.
after writing on the paper, the student need to wrap a stone with the paper.
then the finished "Paper Stone" need to put inside their bag and need to carry it.
everyday they need to write one and the professor say that he will meet them up after 2 weeks.
therefore they student start to wondering why the professor do so and some feel exciting.

anyways, the student just followed the professor instruction and started to write what they don't like about each other bad attitude.
after weeks passed, it seems that a lot of student had carried a lot of stone in their bag.
at first they feel it was quite interesting to "play" because want to know why the professor suggest this but they started to feel so tired carry those stone and some student even give up.
after two weeks, the professor returned the college and meet with his student to ask how about it whereby some student asked is it related to stamina, psychology or others thing.
the professor just say "yeah, it might probably related to psychology since all student dislike about each other and keep remember inside their heart."
remember inside heart was just like placing a stone inside the heart.

it was because the feelings was just like holding a bunch of stone.
when you dislike 5 person, you just like carrying 5 pieces of stone; while dislike 10 person is like carrying 10 stone which is so heavy and suffering.
so if you don't put down those stones, how would you able to be release yourself from suffering and gain happiness?
there is another story which is about they can't overcome their stubborn attitude.
then a person suggested the people to raise his hand and hold a mug filled with water.
after that, he asked him whether is it heavy to carry the water and the guy answered of course it is not heavy at all.
then he continue to ask the guy to hold for 10,20, 30 minutes until his hand feel so pain.

therefore this situation has shown that at first you don't feel heavy when holding the water mug, but if you keep stubborn and don't wish to put it down, it will eventually make you suffering.
so this theory was just like the same when you reflect it on a person.
when you dislike a person and can't put it down while keep inside your heart, it was just like holding the water which is so painful.
while holding the stones story will eventually make you hunchback or more illness.
in conclusion, if you wish to be happy, you need to let go all the stones, put down your hands, then you will eventually be comfort and more happy.
anyways, i have uploaded the podcast of the story but it is in Cantonese language and i would strongly recommend to listen it (Note: off the blog Mixpod sound at the right hand side)

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after listening to this story, i really get a lot of realization of what i had done in my life.
anyways, i feel myself has put down when "unlocked" back all friendship things no matter in Facebook or about "her".
guess i feel myself can overcome it by now.
it was because when i think about my negative thinking mindset or looked those things i had lost such as those photos stuff, i will listen back this story to make myself comfortable.
overall i feel myself have the "faith in recovery" after so long and feel happy about it.
on the other hand, while packing some stuff on my room, it seems that it has been a long time i did not touch my guitar and keyboard.
hope i can spend some time play the music instrument since has arrived back KL.
XD

Finally Awaken In Life

2012-01-14T08:05:00.000-08:00

today i woke up 10am.
i was awaken by my brother said that he will treat us "Dim Sum" as breakfast.
after prepared myself, we make a move at 10.30pm and reached the Restaurant Hai Thiam Lou Klang (海天楼大酒家) at 10.40am.
when reached there, it seems that there was quite less people and the price was ranged around RM3.80,Rm4.80 to RM5.80 per plate.
anyways, it was quite delicious and father has come on at the later time.
after having the breakfast, we went to a warehouse shop and i have many thought.
while looking at those snacks and foods, i just feel that it was not easy for every traditional old company to survive until now.

moreover, i feel the shop can earn a lot of many when saw many retailer "clear" all the stocks and paid by cash although until RM1,000++.
finally i reach back home at 2.30pm and search some information online.
actually i have many feelings because remembered today was "her" birthday but i had removed "her" from my Facebook account.
on the other hand, today was "Diary Valentines Day" (日记情人节) whereby on this 14 January day,
the couples will give each other own "Love Diary" throughout the year as a symbol of the two people will be together for the coming year for having more memories.
anyways, it was just a normal day for me after being "alone" for so long.
around 3.30pm i fetch the dog with my mother to the Lian Clinic vet for dog vaccine injection.

well, i just saw many dogs but feel afraid about other big dog barking and saw many dog foods and tools there.
anyways, i just got more knowledge about dog thing and feel that the veteran can earn so much money is totally reasonable because they need to sacrifice a lot of things such as the probability of facing the dog bite when inject the vaccine on it.
anyways, i arrived home again at 4.10pm and continue to saw some information.
besides, there is one thing i STRONGLY recommend to listen was about Chan Fong DJ podcast for every negative people like me.
there is one story is that i feel the MOST meaningful because i found the answer and finally awaken in life of myself.

the title of the story was "不舍得放弃伤悲" (Don't Want To Let Go of Sadness) by the DJ and i would like write the content of the video as below.
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there is one word is very meaningful which is "when you sick, it is not necessary to take drugs or injection from doctor, but it is a must to have faith in recovery as your mindset.
well, there is one seminar that i heard from a professor which also a speaker that always give talks show about life but has not doing it anymore recently.
actually the reason for not giving talks anymore was her daughter has passed away.
she has changed from a happy person to a totally sad depression person whereby don't have any energy and smile anymore.

during every time when talking about her daughter in the talk show, she will eventually cry and she continue to blame herself for almost 10 years.
after that, she will keep advice all the audience to care more about their family and person around them so that won't regret like her. (feel this sentence talking about myself >.<)
furthermore, she will never go any happy party or any happy events because she will eventually feel guilty if she do such things.
then the DJ said that we shouldn't be like that and feel so suffering.
for example, just like the teenager who feel so happy when fall in love but feel so sad when break up until 2-3 years also haven put down.
according to the psychology research, it was because old habit that don't wish to change.

moreover, they don't willing to put down this kind of sad feelings since they don't wish to put down "those years happiness" that they have and don't wish to accept new relationship because afraid that the new relationship will reduce the happiness memory. (feel this sentence saying myself >.<)
another reason was because they want to get attention from people around them and don't wish to recovery so fast.
this kind of "self torturing feelings" can actually recover long time ago but many people just refuse to recovery so fast because themselves also not very sure.
lastly, some people can even start to enjoy this kind of "sadness" feelings.
therefore when a person sick, they can choose not to take medicine but they MUST have the faith on recovery in mindset.

it was totally same for people having sadness in mentally although don't wish to hear friend advice but the things that they must have is FAITH IN RECOVERY.
after listening to this story, i really totally gain a lot of awakening of myself.
anyways, i had uploaded the video but in Cantonese that made by myself from the DJ for understand my "leave me alone" feelings attitude that i have last time. (Note: off the blog Mixpod sound at the right hand side before playing this video below.)

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after that, i continue listen some other story and feel so happy because i finally uploaded a Youtube video that made by myself for the first time after practicing the speech.
at night, mother just cooked curry fish head and i like it very much.
later on, i followed my friend car to listen some "Forex Trading" shared by friend.
somehow just feel so envy when heard that others people can earn so many million just doing the trade but they did have their own difficulties to.
besides, i feel myself quite "childish" when listened to others friend story about working.
anyways, i just told myself to be satisfied on what i have.
finally i arrived home at 11.20pm and saw some other friend status.
guess now i can overcome those "college friendship" things after looked some picture updates.

just told myself don't feel so sad after ownself had ruined such great friendship with ex-classmate and got clear to think positive after keep listening to the video for feeling better.
moreover, i just feel to share an interesting picture that "don't cry over the past, it's gone. don't stress about the future, it hasn't arrived, live in the present and make it beautiful" as picture below.at last, i feel so thankful to all blog friends especially OC, Joshua, Eric and some other anonymous "criticise" comment that helped me to "grown up" in some way.
from now on, i told myself to be positive every day and will share a story from the 988 DJ which i feel so meaningful about.
guess after reaching 21 years old and "sadding" for almost 3 years, i finally awaken in life for having faith in recovery for my so call "lonely+sad disease".
THANKS YOU ALL FRIENDS !!!
XD

Worry For Future

2012-01-13T07:27:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 10.20am.
then i just settle some necessary online things as usual.
around 12pm i phone my friend to ask about whether want to eat Sushi Zanmai or not because it might be my last day to stay at KL after back my hometown.
actually i don't feel to back so fast but it was because the i had made an appointment with a hometown friend for learn about Forex trading knowledge.
after i prepared myself, my friend arrived at 1.20pm and we went to fetch other friend before heading to Bukit Bintang.
we reached there around 3pm but decided to went to T-Bowl Concept Restaurant at Sungai Wang and i finally can go after thinking about it after so long.

first of all, i just feel the menu of the book was quite big as picture below.during the moment at there, the chair was made of the "toilet seat" and the table was designed with bathroom concept.
moreover, the price of the food was around RM9~RM15 per meal.
however, i just feel the food just okay to eat although it can make you think about toilet things.
anyways, below was the details of the cafe.
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Sungei Wang Plaza - 3rd Floor
3F-No 41 & 42, Jalan Bukit Bintang, 55100 Kuala Lumpur. Malaysia.
Business Hour: Mon-Sun (11am - 10pm) (Last Call 9.30pm)
Free Wifi Available
Reservation: YES (On weekdays only)
Contact Number : +603 2141 1606
Email: tbros@t-bowl.com____________________________________

after that, we went to shopping a while at there.
honestly, i just thinking about "her" when passing the Kim Gary cafe.
suddenly, it was so coincidence to saw "her" walked pass by me with her friend.
the feeling was just like your heart being sliced a little by little.
seriously the feelings still there and i just can't do anything except pretending never saw "her".
actually tomorrow was "her" birthday and i just feel so sad to think about.
the feelings was just like "it hurts when you have someone in you heart but you can't have them in your arms."around 5.30pm i went to take Monorail to KL central and although the weather still raining.
somehow i just have the down feeling while walking in rain to KL Central LRT.

while on my journey to Taman Paramount LRT, my hometown friend send an SMS and said can't make it today and i just feel things did not run smoothly when you want it.
finally i arrive Taman Paramount LRT station at 6.20pm and waited my brother to come.
during the time at car, i just hear my brother shared about his working experience and so many "backstabbing" story because it is so scary when compared with my college experience.
then i reached my hometown at 7.30pm and have some simple dinner cooked by mother.
while sister arrive home, i just express my sad feeling to her but she "shoot" me badly.
she said that my this kind of "problem" was so small matter and he told me some story.
it was about the a beggar at "Pasar Malam" with his 8 years old son begging.
my sister said that how you think the little boy will feel when he grow up knowing that his father was beggar because i have hand and leg should not think my problem was a "sad" once since there was far more unlucky person out there.

maybe she was right that the reason i feel so sad easily because living too comfortable at my past.
it was because my brother also said me that i need to face until a very desperate moment only will try to wake from my so call "dream".
after that, i just continue to surf the internet and look on some information.
just feel quite sad when saw the photo class of my ex-classmate because i was not inside.
somehow just feel that why just because of some small thing make such decision to change class and feel so regret again.
sometime i did wonder that "God", if my existence can bring so much unhappiness to others, why i need to exist in this world?
however, i did get some realization after hearing some story from 988 Chan Fong DJ.

seriously the program was TOO GOOD to listen and i did get many experience.
it seems that there is so "much much much" problem in adult if compared my this so call "love" problem.
sometime you just don't need to get recognition from other people and it was just enough when yourself realize about it.
just feel that "sometimes we waste too much time to think about someone that doesn't think about us for a second."so why don't just don't care?
it seems that all the worry for future seems not be big matters if compared with others people.
anyways, i just feel to share about this 988 DJ program every Friday night 10pm-1am and i was lucky that i had set the reminder in my phone every week to make myself recall about it.
on the other hand, i am not sure that i will able to blog everyday for my future since working life is far more stress and i don't think blogging will help much to release stress.
finally i send "her" a happy birthday message at 12am and don't wish to think so much thing like last year again after what,why and how after sending.
>.<

RM200 Book Voucher Tarc

2012-01-12T11:41:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 7.20am.
then i just do the final revision for the Economic for Marketing resit paper.
around 8.35pm i prepared myself and went to PA block to sit for the exam.
when i reach the class, it was quite full of people and i saw one of my ex-classmate during diploma year and feel a bit embarrass for me to take this subject again.
during the moment doing this paper, i feel quite hopeless again because i did skipped the price of elasticity demand chapter because i though it will be counting Net Present Value or WACC.
it seems that i will be fail again since the compulsory question and another question was all about price of elasticity.
the only thing i believe i correct was writing two characteristic of public good.

anyways, it seems that i will can't go to the SHU and just can wait to refund the money.
on the other hand, i feel that maybe need to join junior next year if i really make it.
somehow just feel that so many things has been wasted and all because of own fault.
perhaps i should prepare more earlier instead as said like "students are amazing people who can revise the whole chapter that have been thought for 4 months in just 1 night" as picture below.anyways, i sit until the end of the time although saw many people went out early.
after that, i meet my friend at Tarc Canteen 1 and have my lunch there while waiting to redeem the RM200 Book Voucher from the government and it is say that they had allocated RM260 million under the 1Malaysia Book Voucher scheme to benefit about 1.3 million students.
well, i just feel that why don't just give us the RM200 cash instead of the voucher.

around 1pm we went to the Bangunan Tun Tan Siew Sin ground floor since we were from School of Business Studies for the Tarc Distribution of Book Voucher 2012 as shown below.upon reaching there, there was full of people and saw many beautiful girls which i feel it will be the last day to saw this kind of scene although having full of regret feeling for not being in a relationship before throughout my study journey at Tarc.
on the other hand, i just feel to sell the RM200 voucher for RM100 cash because i feel it was not very useful for me since it was my last semester.
however, i also feel that the government was quite tricky because the voucher is valid until 31 March 2012 and we need to write our name on it to prevent other people use.
after taking the voucher, my friend fetched me back home.

upon reached home, i just feel tired and rested a while.
then i went to play a match of Dota and chat with some long lost friend.
around 7pm i went to Genting Klang for having dinner with some housemate.
once again i found myself like to see the girl with short hair and cute face.
after that, we went to have some dessert at Grandmom Dessert 阿嬷芋圆.豆花.
it seems that they having promotion of Buy 2 get 1 Free for four day.
when i reach my home again, i feel so tired and went to take a nap.
the moment i woke up again was 12am.
well, i just played some Dota match with secondary friends and went to search some information online after that.

there is an article i would like to share about "上床之後的愛情還能維持多久" which related to "Sex" but in Chinese at the link >>> Here.
somehow just feel that actually there is no exactly definition of who is right or wrong.
on the other hand, i was quite jealous again while looks some friends can hang out together in a group while i just doing nothing much for today.
until now i still feel that if "that day" did not happens, perhaps i am the one who still on the picture being tagged and enjoy travel around with friends.
at last, just feel to share a interesting status that i saw which is "不要太在乎一些人，越在乎，越卑微。从现在起，聪明一点，不要问别人想不想你，爱不爱你？若是要想你、爱你自然会对你说，但从你的嘴里说出来，别人会很骄傲和冷落你。不要过份在意一些人，过份在乎一些事，顺其自然，以最佳的心态面对。这个世界就是这样，往往在最在乎的事物面前，我们最没有价值。"
anyways, just lazy to translate in English and the summary of the meaning was "the things that we often care most seems to be do not have any value in this world."
sigh.
~.~

You Are The Apple Of My Eye 2012 那些年，我想追的女孩

2012-01-11T21:35:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 6.45am.
then i just briefly read again the Strategic Marketing & Decision Making notes before heading for my final exam.
around 8.30am i prepared myself and arrived just in time.
during the moment going in the hall, i was quite sensitive with the girl especially who is short hair because it will reminds me of "her".
when the exam was going to start, it was so coincidence that "she" was seating just two place in front of me.
well, i guess it will be my last time to have the "high feeling" by viewing "her" image from behind and i did feel some sad feeling on the bottom of my heart.

somehow i did think of many thing again before starting to look my exam things.
suddenly just feel that i will only appreciate it when the things is "LAST".
anyways, i did manage to complete my SMDM examination at the end of the time and have 60% confidence that i will definitely pass this paper.
actually my hope was just to take a simply picture with "her" but just feel so regret did not do so in the end.
perhaps it was a good things for not doing it because i will remember even more right if i do so.
on the other hand, i did saw another girl that i like before "her" after walking out the examination hall and saw she was so happy with her boyfriend.
just feel that life was full of coincidence because everything will be show up in the end.

after that, i followed my classmate to take picture at the new block building.
somehow i just feel quite sad when think about ex-classmate thing.
i still not sure whether it will be a wise decision to change class or not after so many things happen because if i never change class, i will be even more "jealous" of what she do after compared with now.
however, the things i lost was the friendship with ex-classmate although myself has spoiled it with just some "childish" Facebook comments.
actually i know part of the problem came from myself of thinking the problem too seriously.
well, i just can wish happy farewell 2012 to all my friends, classmate and ex-classmate which i deeply appreciate all of their helps.

anyways, i know it is no use to say anything now because all the thing happens already happens where it just can't change much no matter what i do.
guess i am the only one who have saw and experience the most things happens although some bad memory while in college.
after the photo session, i just went back home and did not follow classmate go lunch due to my resit exam tomorrow.
while walking home, i just have a very down feelings due to the farewell feelings just like the secondary school.
upon lying on the bed, i just started to think a lot of thing again and my tears eventually drop while listening to the piano version of the "Na Xie Nian Hu Xia" song in my phone.

the feeling was just like having a flashback of all the things and mistake that being made.
well, i was awakens again around 6am and have a dream again.
the dream was quite special for me whereby i sit at the back of the girl's father car, holding her waist and eventually have the "high feelings".
seriously i REALLY very like this kind of "pure love feelings" although i just hope can SAVE this short little moment because i believe i will never find back again.
how great if it happens in real life although i know it was just a dream.
somehow i just feel myself like a nobita crying like a baby and just wanted help from Doreamon which is impossible to happen in real life.if there is, i just want a time machine because it can change and reset everything that happens.

actually i feel to write many feelings about how i encounter with this blog since 2006 where i just view other people blog and started myself on 2008.
after think for some thing, i feel there is no necessary to write out all the things i feel about "her" because it will just increase more sadness for myself.
perhaps this was my "You Are The Apple Of My Eye 2012" (那些年，我想追的女孩) story instead of the movie version.
the things i really feel was about life is "人生就是不停的尝试" which means "life is all about trying" instead of battling.
on the other hand, i also feel that "也许在梦里，我们是在一起的" which means that "perhaps i will be together with you in the dream."
around 6.40pm went to have economy rice dinner alone and just feel no appetite to eat.

at night, i just continue to study the night continue to study my resit paper.
around 11pm i went to have supper before continue to study.
actually this blog post was updated on the next day.
the reason of blogging now was really hope there will be no Tarcian junior follow my mistaken footprint and it is not funny at all to be lonely at the end of the life.
after this examination, everything will be about work, work and working and money, money and money.
anyways, this was just a little story of my "Those Years, Lonely Story" and guess i am the only one who have so much feeling about life and having so much regret in my life.sigh.
T.T

Xue Bu Hui Lin Jun Jie 学不会林俊杰

2012-01-10T05:20:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 10.30am.
then i just do some online necessary stuff a while before preparing myself go to library for study.
well, it seems that i got "boom" very badly due to yesterday post and i feel myself need to always get scold only will realize something.
around 12.25pm i prepared myself and went to Tarc canteen 2 to have my lunch and feel the normal "Wan Tan Mee" was not tasty.
during the moment i walked to library, i saw some ex-classmate again and just feel the world always so coincidence again.
while the first hour of my study, i start to feel fall asleep again.
on the other hand, i still think about the feedback i get was quite true.

therefore i just don't care anything and just SMS "her" an wishing message after "so so so" long did not even send a text message.
after some moment, i just received a reply and it was by Maxis saying that "please call instead" as picture below.i was like "WTF" expression and did feel that perhaps "she" got many admire text until "her" inbox fulled.
after text, i just feel regret that why want to text after so long did not send any message.
however, i just comfort myself that what has done, has done although it was just a very small matters and just continue my study.
after few hour passed, i received a text message about today was a "Sister Day" in Whatsapp.

then i just used the new broadcast feature and send to all my contact using the application.
without realizing what happens next, i just get some reply from long lost friend.
perhaps i think too much about the problem happened last time and should be more "open" in some things.
after that, i just photostat some Strategic Marketing & Decision Making pass year that has been missed out and found most of the question asked was quite similar for every year.
anyways, i did have confidence in the paper tomorrow.
around 6.10pm i prepared myself and went back from Tarc library.
then i just have my dinner with my ex-housemate and shared a lot of story with him and just feel soon i will leave here.

well, i just feel to share one of the song i liked most nowadays which is "Xue Bu Hui" by Lin Jun Jie (学不会林俊杰).
below was the lyrics of the song and feel so meaningful about it.
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你的痛苦我都心疼想为你解决，
挡开流言紧握你手想飞奔往前。
我相信爱能证明一切，够真心会超越时间，
多付出也多了喜悦，
让幸福蔓延。

总是学不会，再聪明一点。
记得自我保护，必要时候讲些，善意谎言。
总是学不会，真爱也有现实面。
不是谁情愿，
就能够解决。

一次争吵一个心结累积着改变，
内心疏远足够秒杀外表多浓烈。
才发现爱不代表一切，再真心也会被阻绝。
这世界天天有诡雷，
随时会爆裂。

还是学不会，少浪漫一点。
拼命着想的事，未必带来感动，或被感谢。
还是学不会，解释我最伤。
最累，痛死都不愿，
怪谁。

把每段痴情苦恋，在此刻排列面前。
也感觉，不埋怨，只怀念。总是学不会，再聪明一点。
记得自我保护，必要时候讲些，善意谎言。
不是学不会，只是觉得爱，太美。
值得去沉醉，流泪。
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the word that highlighted in red is the sentences i feel so meaningful.
besides, i just feel there is one more sentences was quite meaningful that is "我发现要喜欢一个人并不难，但是要爱上一个人，维持这份爱，我还是学不会。" which means "I find that it is not difficult to like a person, but to fall in love with a person and maintain this love, I still don't know."
anyways, you can listen to the song at the link >>> Here.
besides, just feel to share a video about materialistic society and feel myself like a "rubbish" stated in the "男人沒錢是垃圾，結婚就是一場《巨額交配》" video at the link >>> Here.
perhaps this kind of feelings can make me give up on chasing "her".
later on, i just realized received a decent payment from a blogging ads few day ago.
lastly, just feel to share an interesting picture said that "there are so many people out there who will tell you that you can't. what you've got to do is turn around and say "watch me"." as picture below.at last just hope i can done well for my exam tomorrow.
^.^V

Knowing Too Much Information

2012-01-09T05:36:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 11.20am.
as i awakens, i still recall the conversations with some housemate about girls thing yesterday as i going to sleep.
actually it was all because back to one word which is "Jealousy".
somehow i just jealous my junior can have girlfriend and yet "sex before marriage" is just a common thing in college because i still living in my own "traditional" thought and couldn't believe it until many people said so.
honestly, i was quite jealous when he said that he buy condom at age before 18 and started to have sex life with every relationship he started.
it was because i never tried any of it while i reached my 21 years old.

however, they all just said "haiya, at least you still got your virgin and you will never understand how great to give your so call men first virgin to the girl that walk with you until the end of your life because they will never experience back those feeling although have the "sex" things."
somehow i just feel that kind this of words just comfort myself to feel better.
seriously i was so "Bu Gan Yuan" again that why other people can be so happy in relationship while i just failed to chase a girl can be sad till now.
moreover, "she" keep appear in my mind whenever i want to think of new girl which make me hard to start a new so call "loving" feelings after so long of time being passed.
i believe not much people will truly understand this kind of feelings which is so hard to EXPRESS in words and it can make your soul gone "crazy".

everyday i did start asking myself what you want la "lonelyreload o lonelyreload"? (talking with myself calling my own name)
is it money? love? sex? friendship? academic?
if it is really money, why don't want robe the bank? if it is really love + sex, why don't just find prostitute? if it is really friendship, why don't just repair it? if it is really academic, why don't just study hard?
why... Why... WHY... WHY !!!
why i just can't satisfy with the life i have if compare with those disable people, beggar and other not very good people.
feeling so "sucks" when i just can comfort myself to feel better with this kind of bad example.

however, there is new perception i have that is not good which is i will start to think EVERY couple who in a relationship at least 3 month will have sex life because he also say 70% of couple did have sex when in a relationship.
in the end, it just leave myself to not believing it and keep stay on my "children zone".
around 12pm my friend came to find me and talked about the "Tarcianpreneur" program.
it was actually about aquaculture and mushroom cultivation seminar that cost RM380.
upon joining that seminar, i will be learning those things but can be rich if i really know the way.
if i really want join it, i need to cancel my thought for finding full time job after my exam because it require 10 days and i believe no company will allow their employee to take 10 day leave right?
until now my future seems so "blur" and i really don't know want do what in life.

after that, we went to Ochado Setapak to have some bubble tea and i tried another flavour.
then we went to Chong Fatt Cafe which is one of the cafe i wish to go long time ago while heard many people said that they were famous for fish head noodles.
well, i just feel okay only for the fish head fish maw noodle that cost RM12.90 with jasmine tea in set but feel a little not worth since i don't know how to eat fish head.
besides, i just have some thought again while listening to others friend story.
somehow just feel that there is no use to be so call "good guy" in life because they will just get the "good guy card" from girl in the end.
the example was just like selling newpaper road although you have high qualification certificate which the result of the outcome is most important no matter what you do.

around 3pm we went to a friend house for study final exam.
honestly, i did feel confidence about the Strategic Marketing & Decision Making exam paper but not for my coming Economics for Marketing resit paper.
somehow it just reminds me of "her" again when looking to the scenery of Genting Klang especially the Old Town there.
until now i really "Bu Fu Qi" because after change class also having same condition.
i thought that i will eventually not feel so much because many people said that when you lost contact with someone, you will eventually forget it but why it doesn't happen to me?
seriously in life i saw almost 1000++ beautiful girl but why don't just put this "emo" feelings down after so long?

actually i know i shouldn't think this kind of things especially exam so near and most of the people said that when you get great result, eventually get great job, eventually earn many money and eventually attract many girls.
although i know this things, but why just can't think on focusing the exam first?
around 7.50pm i went to have my dinner at the nearby stall and have some thought again.
suddenly just remember about a teacher and his student story shared by FM radio yesterday.
the student asked her teacher that why i have so many trouble and problem?
then the teacher asked the student to bring some salt and a glass of water.
he asked the student to put a big tea spoon on the water and drink it.
after that, he asked how was it and the student say it is very salty.

then the teacher bring the student to a river and asked him to pour the a big teaspoon of into the river to taste it.
well, the student said there was not salty and all and he finally realized this salt story.
the moral of this story was actually about when you experience the hard things at first, you will eventually be more easy when doing an easier task.
somehow i just feel this story was just easy said but so hard do for myself.
in the end, the people who lost all the "game" was myself and just can blame here and there.
in conclusion, i just can say that knowing too much information was totally not a good thing at all.
finally i arrived my home at 8.30pm and faced some difficulties open my room because i thought the owner changed the door key.
after tried few time, i finally can in and feel so happy.
at last, just feel to share a very meaningful picture as below about "Get all the Girl".=D

Car Sifu Malaysia

2012-01-08T06:58:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 9am.
actually i still very sleepy and feel to sleep back but father keep called me at down stair.
it was because today was the 15 years remembrance of grandfather pass away day and there was so ceremony need to follow.
after the prayers, i just went to sleep back.
the moment i woke up again was 1pm and mother has cooked some vegetarian as our lunch.
after that, brother had came back too with his girlfriend from KL.
during the afternoon, i just went to search some information online.
there is a website i would like to recommend if you would like to buy car and looks on the reviews for the car in Malaysia.

it was actually a website called as Car Sifu which focus on Malaysia car.
first of all, this website provide details information about car whether you are finding used car or a new one.
besides, you can easily search the car you would like to buy in the search toolbar.
for an example, you searched for Honda car keywords and it will eventually list out all Honda car available as picture below.upon clicked inside the car such as Honda Accord, you can gain details information about it such as location, seller contact number and others just like below.well, the best part of this website was you can still negotiate the price with the seller after you had view from low end to high end car.

furthermore, you can register as a member of the website to know more details about it.
in conclusion, the website was a user friendly website to look upon if you would like to buy or sell cars in Malaysia.
somehow i just wondering myself when i have my own car after looking the website.
around 6.30pm i just have my dinner because need to prepare myself back KL house for my last final examination soon at Tarc.
after having my dinner, my brother drove to one of the Saloon at Eng Ann for cut hair.
during the moment while waiting the hairstylist, my brother asked me about the "UK" thing and i tell him my confidence to go this year seems not be able to make it.
he just told me try my best and shared some others things.

i just feel it was quite true when he said that communication really require both people to share different information and not only one people sharing.
before going out from there, he asked me whether want to have hair cut together because the price will be expensive a bit in KL since Chinese New Year coming soon.
during the journey to the LRT station, there is a big beautiful ferris wheel installed at i-city and i reached LRT Station Asia Jaya around 8.20pm.
during the time at train, it was so coincidence that i saw one of my Toastmaster friend and i eventually went to sit beside him to chat about the club thing.
it seems that i will be counted as exco member but still can come back to join the club although i will be leaving the college soon.

besides, i told him that i might not going to SHU due to my predicted fail result for my resit paper when he asked and feel quite sad.
he just told me a words that is quite meaningful which is FAIL means that First Attend In Learning and should not be treated as a failure in life and become hopeless.
moreover, he has shared many other meaningful and went out at the KL Central station.
suddenly, i seems to have a "flashback" of myself about "her".
i was totally so depressed because asked myself why i missed a lot of chance talking with "her" during the journey back Klang together last time because i now only realized to take initiative to talk with my toastmaster friend just now.
seriously the feeling was like "shouting+crying inside the brain" after having the "realization".

somehow it also linked me to think back many last time things.
around 9.10pm i arrived on Wangsa Maju went to few saloon shop to see which is more cheaper.
finally i found one which is the Zing Wangsa Maju because it cost RM20 for wash + cut for student price and charge extra RM5 for CNY period.
well, the most happiest moment for today was having a head massage and hair wash by a beautiful girl and her voice was quite sweet.
i believe this kind of hair washing service will be the most happy moment for every guy especially those lonely people.
perhaps this can also related with why adult like to find those "extra service things".
at the end, i just noticed that they charged RM30 total due to the extra shampoo treatment.

finally i reached my KL house at 10.35pm and went to do some online stuff.
just found a sentences of words quite meaningful that is "嫉妒使一个人变得丑陋" which means "jealousy makes a people becomes more ugly".
somehow i just comfort myself try to be positive in thing because "人比人，比死人", which means don't compare yourself to other people because it will make you more suffering.
thinking back now, i suddenly remember what my friend told me yesterday about life which is just about what you want to be because if you just want to have three meals a days, it will definitely possible and you will eventually have satisfaction.
at last, just wish to share a meaningful picture which say that "loving someone who doesn't love you, is like waiting for a ship at the airport" as below.it was so hurt but yet so true.
T.T

Turning Point Laughing Gor Returns 2012

2012-01-07T10:07:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 9.20am.
i was awaken by dad because need to go for the body medical check up for my "hand shake" disease.
around 10.30am we reached the Arunamari specialist medical center and there was full of people.
after waited almost for an hour ++, it finally reach my turn.
well, the doctor do some simply checking and said that it was actually a normal thing for this "hand shaking" disease.
anyways, he suggested me to do a blood test for confirm whether it is caused by others disease or not such as "tyroids".
during the moment taking "blood" from my arms, i just feel afraid when think about it.

in the end, the nurse just managed to my blood after two time of trial of injection in my arms.
just feel so relieved when the blood finally came out and hopefully nothing much wrong.
however, i still feel this medical center was quite expensive because the blood test cost RM180.
after that, we went to the nearby restaurant which named "I-Po Duck Rice (怡保烧鸭店)" and feel the duck was quite nice to eat but still quite expensive.
then we went to Carrefour Klang to have some shopping.
during the moment at there, i just feel myself like a marketer while "surveying" all the food branding and believe if i can solve the wastage, it will definitely earn a lot.
finally i reached my own house at 3.50pm and search some information online again.
after some moment, my secondary friend phone and asked whether want to watch movie or not.

the movie that we choose was named "Turning Point Laughing Gor Returns 2012" and i used the online payment although having some problem at first.
below was the synopsis of the movie.
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Laughing (starring Michael Tse) is sentenced to life-imprisonment for killing So (starring Bosco Wong). While serving his time, Laughing got to know Professor (starring Francis Ng), an introvert jailed for drug-dealing. Professor is a trained psychologist who reads mind, enabling him to manipulate and control others.
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besides, my friend phoned that he need to park his new sport Peugeot sportcar at my house because there is no other car available in the house at that moment.

honestly, i did feel envy about him can drive such nice car although we are at the same age.
just search some information about it and it was actually a Peugeot RCZ which cost around RM210,000++ look like picture below.somehow i just feel when will i able to drive those car one day.
moreover, i believe if i have that kind of car, i definitely can chase the girl i like now.
anyways, thinking anything also useless because i did not come from rich background.
around 7pm he reached my house but did not drive the car since other car was available.
then he shared some of his Australia study trip with me while waiting other friend to come.
i just know that tram service in Adelaide was totally free of charge and most of the student that study there mostly came from rich background too.

furthermore, the people who live at Australia was having a very freedom lifestyle.
those 18++ things was just a normal stuff because prostitution seems to be legal there.
while another arrived, we went to the a "Pan Mee" noodle shop near there and i feel it was so tasteful for my taste.
then we went to play 2 round of Dota match at Blitzone cyber cafe.
around 10.15pm we make a move from there and straight head to TGV Jusco Bukit Tinggi.
we reached there around 10.40pm and late for few minute for our movie.
after finished watched the Laughing Gor Returns movie, i just feel it was so true that the power of "hypnosis" or manipulation was the strongest tool in world which can make people die for you and 100% chase any girl you like.

i would like to rate this movie as 4.5 out of 5 stars and strongly recommend to watch if you had saw the TBR Laughing Gor drama.
anyways, you can have a look the movie trailer at the link >>> Her e.
during the time at car while heading to mamak, my friend just make a "joke" of me to do "duck" if want to earn money fast.
just wondering why all the guys like to say "go do duckie la if want earn fast money" or the secondary thing was doing all those illegal thing.
around 12.40pm we reach the "Restoran Sri Shanmuga" mamak at Berkeley and there was so many people having supper.
i just have some "nasi lemak" and chit chat with my friend there.

although i know it will be very earning to open at Australia such as selling roti canai, satay, fish ball or others, but no money to open talk anything also useless right.
furthermore, my friend also told me that the Chatime at Australia was also very successful.
besides, i was quite envy with him can go gamble at the casino there and the great thing was family asked him to go and will get double money back for every loses.
somehow i just gained many "adult" knowledge again from his sharing too.
i just know that actually you can easily get a "chick" in those clubbing area and it was quite normal to have "Accompany Beer Girl (陪酒妹)" while what guy called as "socialize (应酬)".
seriously i haven tried those "Touch Lai Touch Qu" feeling and believe it will definitely a very special feeling if i have chance to experience one day.

perhaps this is what we can say satisfying the "demand and supply" while if you are rich, those very beautiful girls was just like a "stock" for you.
if want to think it as positive, eventually can be a benefits if you are single and lonely because no need to care so much other thing but in order to play this "game", you need to be really rich.
maybe the reason i being sad most of the time was because i can't get what i want and feel the world is so unfair just like the movie.
somehow i also feel my so call "love" was not even a big matter while my heard friend shared some other people story.
in the end, it still goes back to main root whereby rich can really buy many "things".
no people will really care much on the way you earn those money and will judge by your success.

seriously i feel the movie did have their point because what we call "justice" or rule was also set by human right.
on the other hand, i just feel that i totally lost many things in life again while thinking back my olden story because don't wish to lost the love and friendship.
finally i reached my home at 2am and went to online while updating my blog.
just feel quite down when being invited to the UK group because knowing i will not going due to my failed result.
honestly, all my friend was doing very well in life and just left myself "sobing" almost everyday.
i just feel totally "Bu Gan Yan" at all when saw all the things happening in my life.
my friend last advice was just like the movie which is if you feel unfair, just fight for it and not just by saying only.
=(

Integrated Marketing Communication Final Exam

2012-01-06T08:58:00.000-08:00

today i woke up 7.40am.
then i just have the "munchy love letter" biscuit as my breakfast and do the last revision for my integrated marketing communication final exam.
around 8.35am i prepared myself and went to the Tarc PA block to sit for my exam.
i reached there around 8.50am and most of the place was fully seated.
during the moment i saw the only seat, "she" was just seated in front of me and i was like "wahlau, God also want like this play me meh?"
why the world can so many "coincidence" thing happen to me?
at first, i did feel to change place but there is no other place to sit.
after some moment pass, i told myself to think in a positive way.

perhaps the "God" wanted me to have the last chance to meet "her" because it was already last semester and last time of examination.
honestly, i did "enjoyed" myself very much looking at "her" even it was just on the back. (sounds pervert right? >.<)
the feeling was like getting my iPhone 3GS last time where it is a special feeling that it can make you feel happy deep bottom of the heart until can express in face expression.
during the first hour, i just enjoyed myself with the "high feelings" while doing the examination.
after 2 hour had passed, i realized that it was only left one hour+ to do the 3 question of the section B.
then i just quickly write all the things i know into the examination paper.

in the end, i still manage to finish all the question and have the 70% feeling that i will definitely pass this paper.
in conclusion, i can say this 3 hour of IMC exam moment was my most happiest moment throughout the year for 2012 when the present of "her" if i did not think on the negative side.
somehow it will eventually reminds me that "her" birthday will arrive soon at next saturday and feel that so fast 1 year had passed again.
however, the 3 hour moment "happy" moment for myself mode has turn back to "negative" thought again when time reached 12.15pm.
seriously i just feel to disappear from the venue immediately because i will think many sad thing after that moment where it will be the last time to see "her" for so close distance.

perhaps this will just be my "Those Years (那些年)" story for myself although it was so call "love story" was not as happy as others.
as soon as i reached home, it was true that those sad feeling was back.
seriously i did regret of many mistake that i had done wrong but there is no time machine that you can go back to change it.
besides, i did feel to spend around RM50 just to eat some sushi to make myself happy but i played 1 round of Dota with my housemate.
after that, i prepared myself to back Klang because mother said i had appointment with the doctor at Arunamari specialist medical centre klang and might overnight one day for body check up especially the "hand shaking" disease i have.

anyways, i changed my mind eating at Kopitiam Desa (好口味糖水小点) Wangsa Maju as lunch.
no doubt that it still the cheapest and satisfied food i have besides that sushi.
somehow it also eventually make me recall back some memories at there.
around 3.55pm i took the train from Wangsa Maju and reached KL Central at 4.20pm.
then i went to the Maxis center there to pay my bill and take KTM back home.
the KTM for today was punctual as stated on the time and i reach Klang KTM at 5.30pm.
after some moment, my father arrived and i finally reach Klang at 5.50pm.
upon reached home, my mother told me about an uncle relative story that he have some family problem and will stay at our house for some day.
i just feel that even adult still have their own problem to think about.

at night, i just have some simple meal cooked by mother as my dinner.
then i phoned some friend to chat about since the relative was still at downstair talking.
later on around 11pm, i went out to "yumcha" with one of my Klang friend.
he shared many working experience story to me and i feel so appreciate about myself after listening to what is really called as "bitter work".
well, he shared that he had worked many low class job and gained a lot of experience.
the story that leaved me a strong memory was about the lowest salary that he ever do was around RM600 as an ice cream trucker that carry ice for retailer shop such as 7 eleven.
he told me that not much people will truly understand the feeling of being looked down by some students during the moment he deliver the ice cream product near the Taylor college.

the feeling was like he have the QS diploma certificate but can't have the same lifestyle as those student and worked so hard.
maybe this is what we called "Tong Ren Bu Tong Ming Ah" in Chinese and i should be more appreciate of what i have now.
on the other hand, it was also true that the staff will take some stock during the delivery as told in tutorial class last time which is really based on a true story when heard his experiences.
besides, i was quite amazed with his bravery to work at Brunei alone which salary around 1500 Brunei money.
however, he just worked for two week due to the working environment was so scary because he stayed at the "long house" that made from wood and not much people staying.

moreover, there was few case that a few Thailand foreigner has been eaten up by crocodile during the moment they fishing near the river.
at first it might sounds like joke but it is not funny anymore since it was real case and i feel sad for those people who died eaten by crocodile.
sometime i just wondering why i can always can have such sad+negative feelings whereas there is much more people who suffering just to survive in this "cruel" world.
one thing i still believe till now was "money really can change a lot of things" even though many people said that no need money to "pak toh" although i know there will be but the percentage was very low such as 1%.
about my pure love feelings toward "her", it will just remain as unique memory in my life.

finally i arrived back home at 12.20am and saw the uncle still there and believe something big had happened.
lastly, i would like to share a meaningful picture about "stop searching forever, happiness is right next to you" as below.perhaps the reason why others people can be so happy everyday was because the realized that there was no such thing as forever and try to look the happiness which around them.
overall today i really gained a lot of experience from others people and actually there is much more thing he shared about caring boss feeling, working politic and others.
however, i believe the road will be harder after this study lifestyle.
hope i just hope i can manage it and grown more mature in life.
=D

Business Finance Resit Examination

2012-01-05T07:34:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 7.10am.
then i just do my final revision for my Business Finance resit paper.
actually i still don't have much confidence while looking at the short notes.
around 8.30am i prepared myself and went to Tarc canteen 2 and bought a sandwich as my breakfast before heading to the examination venue.
while i reach the examination venue, i saw there was around 40++ people resit for this paper which come from all different kind of courses.
when opening the exam paper, i just feel so down because don't know do the calculation.
all i doing was all the theory part and just "sleep do, sleep do" condition while doing the paper.
honestly, i feel to "see" my friend answer who sit in front of me but can't see anything.

for the first time, this is the paper that i leaved blank and passed up in my life.
it was because my perception for last time was no matter how i don't know how to do, i will at least "die out" something but this time i did not.
somehow i just feel totally hopeless for it and just blame myself for not prepare it well although the last time i sit for this paper was 1 year ago.
well, i think there is no need to talk anymore about the "UK" thing although had paid the registration fee.
while waiting for the time to reach 12.15pm, so many thought had gone through my mind and was just like a self reflecting period.
seriously i really don't know what i am doing during my study journey at Tarc college.

perhaps is my own personality problem that is so "anti-social" and keep "alone" behavior that had resulted the "me" of myself now?
after taking the some notes about the paper from my friend, i went to Tarc canteen and bought two steam "char siew pao" at the canteen for the first time.
somehow i just liked the taste although i did not have much appetite to eat.
during the afternoon, i just feel quite tired and lying on bed a while but not sleeping.
around 4.20pm my friend send me an SMS that he studying on Tarc reading room at H block and asked me whether want to come.
after some moment, i decided to meet him there although feel to sleep at first to study the Integrated Marketing Communications examination for tomorrow.

somehow i just feel so "sucks" after knowing more and more the bad side of myself.
maybe what he say was quite true about how other people can be so happy because it was just like a paper that although being teared, they still able to cover it with cellophane tape although there will still some scars left.
therefore it will be a great lesson for them to learn next time when facing similar condition but this just happen contra with me where i just feel to go deeper and deeper to "darkness".
around 6.20pm we make a move from there and went to Genting Klang to fetch some friend.
finally we went to the De Asian Cafe that near Setapak to have our dinner.well, just feel the surrounding was quite nice to have dinner but the menu cost around RM8.50 to RM9.50 without any free drinks.

actually i did saw some information about this cafe long time ago and they was cheaper at last time but no longer for now.
i enjoyed the curry chicken noodles very much due to quite hungry after just had some small meals during the afternoon.
anyways, below was the details of the cafe.
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De Asian Cafe Setapak
22A Jalan Danau Niaga, Taman Danau Kota, 53300 Genting Kelang, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
Phone No: 012-9612000 (Andrew, person in-charge)
Business Hours Daily: 8.00 am - 1.00 am
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actually i still feel a bit jealous while looking at other couple talking so sweet each other.
anyways, just can comfort myself again with those "magic words" i created.
after that, we went to a friend house for study the IMC with other classmate.
well, i gained much information about the exam tomorrow although i my confidence was just okay before going there.
it is so true that studying in a group will definitely help a lot because there is much more opinion can be shared among each other.
furthermore, it also proved that studying alone will be harder if you are not a smart student and perhaps will thinking more thing especially you are alone.
overall my confidence for tomorrow was around 70% to pass since it was more on opinion thinking skills as long as it sounds logic.
actually today feeling was not very okay due to the morning paper and i just can "mask" myself trying to be happy.just can comfort myself that what had pass, has past and don't think of it anymore even though already know that i will be resit for that BF paper.
upon reach home, suddenly i remember about the cloth i washed and went to do my cloth laundry.
anyways, just hope that there will be no raining tomorrow.
~.~

Web-based Multimedia for Marketing Final Exam

2012-01-04T07:21:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 7.10am.
during the time i awakens, i have a bad dreams that related to surgery.
anyways, i just do my final revision for the Web-based Multimedia for Marketing final exam.
actually i just feel okay for this paper because most of it was related to internet web site thing and the design stuff.
around 8.30am i prepared myself and went to the college hall.
when i reach the college hall, there was full of people although the time haven start and i barely find my seat.
during the moment i open the exam question, i feel quite relieved because i know roughly around 65% for the answer and feel will definitely at least pass for this paper.

suddenly there is a student phone rings and the the examiner just take away the phone although after that, i just walked back home.
honestly, while walking back out from the college hall, "she" was just in front me and i just can comfort myself with my "own words" although knowing that the fact was actually like "吃不到葡萄说葡萄酸" in Chinese which like "the fox said the grapes are sour when it could not reach them". (in order to falsely comfort oneself)
then i just have chicken rice as my lunch again.
while reaching home, i just feel so tired and went to take a nap.
the moment i woke up again was around 5.20pm and search some information that i curious about since yesterday.

it was actually about the "picking fruit in New Zealand" job and it seems it require a lot of requirement in order to work there.
one of it was about cherry picking job but the employee must be able to lift, manoeuvre and climb to the top of a 9 foot ladder.
besides, they also need to be capable of working long hours and able to work in the outdoors such as under the heat of sun.
the pay rate would be minimum bucket rate (5kg) is $4-75 for cherries and they are required to pick a minimum number of buckets which is 24.
however, the work is determined by the weather because if it is raining, the fruit can't be harvested because it may be damaged.

somehow i just asked did i capable to do it or not since i was quite short.
moreover, there will be definitely a lot people will laughing that study until college also need do this kind of "slavery" job?
around 6.30pm i went to TBR Summer Tea cafe with some housemate and it leaved me a bad experience because the food i order which is the "tempura prawn" was not tasty by just having 2 small prawn on the rice and cost around RM9 which include the drinks.
at night, i just continue to study my Business Financial.
honestly, i don't think i will able to make it tomorrow for this resit paper because there was so much of calculation which i hated so much.
guess i don't need to think to go to UK anymore although haven sit for the resit paper.

sometime i did really asked myself do i qualified for taking this advance diploma certification and it seems so obviously i was not ready for it.
besides, i did feel that examination was just based on how great you can memorize the answer if you are not a smart student.
on the other hand, luckily i did not do all those "chasing effort" to chase "her" back although i did feel to do so at first.
anyways, those thought just disappeared when looked myself of how "sucks" i am and how can i even guarantee myself that i can give happiness?
just feel that "自己不好，不要连累别人" what i feel during those helpless moment.
at last, there was a picture like process cycle that quite suite me which is do nothing > feel guilty > panic about future > feel powerless as picture below.tomorrow will just be a "playing resit exam" paper feelings for me due to no confidence at all.
=(

Focus Core Business

2012-01-03T06:59:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 11.10am.
actually i has awakens at 9am but insists lying down on the bed.
after settle all the online things, i went to have "economy rice" again as my lunch.
then i prepared myself and went to Tarc library for study.
although there was a lot of people today at there, i still managed to find a place at the highest floor.
during the moment i studying for my tomorrow first paper of WBMM, i still can thinking othes thing because some of the answer require some other thinking skills.
around 4.20pm i went out to take some fresh air again after study for some time.
actually i still thinking about the Tarc vending machine and finally i got my hot Milo drinks after so many time it was out of stock.

during the moment sitting on the bench, i still recalls back some memory alone there.
suddenly i just feel that there is always a place that you will not mention again but will never forget in life.
there will always a person that you will keep remember in heart it will eventually leave you in your life.
those unforgettable memory will just become a thing that we miss and life still goes on.
a lot of people will keep come in your life but there will always a thing never changed.
while looking at the evening sun, i will still occasionally think about those memory.
around 6.30pm my friend arrive at front of the library and we went to Genting Klang to have our dinner.

while we reach there, we went to the Chatime Setapak because there is still a buy 1 Free 1 promotion but i not buy it.
somehow i just envy the successful of Chatime at their video.
there is around 15+ employee making the bubble tea and their sales seems reached 5500 customer as stated in the meter.
those number was just the number of customer they sell so far and is not the state how much cups of each customer bought.
anyways, it will be around RM66,000 sales earned if assume each customer buy 2 cup because i did see a few customer buy until 8 cups at once.
this incident just make me feel that perhaps the best is just focus your core business.
maybe i should help my father printing business although i feel there is no more hope.

what i feel was i need to depend myself to create a new business in order to gain recognition from others people that i did start from scratch on my business journey.
after that, we went to "Pat Kin Pat Sun Cafe" (不见不散) to have our dinner.
i just ordered the black pepper chicken chop with rice and it tasted nice but cost RM9.90 for it.
during the moment at there, we discussed about the paper tomorrow.
however, i feel to do the "pluck fruits" job at New Zealand when heard one of my friend talk about it because feel myself don't have much skills in life.
finally i arrived back home at 10pm.
somehow i just don't like another housemate keep staying my room using the computer.
it was because until now i still find it is hard to update my "private thing" whenever there is people behind me and i always managed to update it when no one around.
anyways, i feel tomorrow paper will be just okay since it is all about internet web page thing.
just can wish myself all the best in exam tomorrow.
>.<

Not The End Of The World Jay Chou 世界未末日

2012-01-02T07:19:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 12.10pm.
then i went to have "economy rice" as my lunch.
while at home, i went to do those necessary online stuff.
then i prepared myself and went to Tarc library to study for the exam things.
during the moment at the library, there was quite less people compared to others day.
however, i still couldn't concentrate much about my study due to keep thinking many things.
somehow i feel excited when thought about how i create my own brand of bubble tea and the unique of the "Lonely" drinks.
anyways, it was just a thought that quite fun to think about although knowing there is so much more things to be consider.

around 4.10pm i went out to refill my water and "hanged" a while at the vending machine.
then i just toss my coins in but it seems that the machine has spoiled.
just feel that so many different outcome from the Tarc vending machine in different day of my experience with it.
besides, i just realized that the library will close at 5pm today because it was a public holiday.
during the moment when back home, i saw one of my classmate and he fetched me back.
at night, i just have "Poligami Aayam" again as my dinner at Ampau Enterprise because there is not much choice to choose again.
anyways, i would like to share one of the song i like nowadays which is "Not The End Of The World" (世界未末日) by Jay Chou.

below was the lyrics of the Not The End Of The World Jay Chou (世界未末日) song.
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这街道在下陷，我们就快失去了家园。
你我却都没有埋怨，将眼泪停格瞬间。
街景摧毁，我内心却不轻易撤退。
满天风雪，我们会微笑去面对。

我牵着你的手，一路穿梭在城市路口。
就算故事到了尽头，我们也绝不退缩。
快转风景，被一再提醒失去森林。
落叶声音，停不住我们的关心。

就算是世界要崩溃，亲爱的我也绝不会落泪。
不放弃爱过的那种感觉，珍惜着有你记忆的一切。
就算是世界要倾斜，亲爱的我也绝不说离别。
尽管末日威胁，再强烈有爱就不累。

我牵着你的手，一路穿梭在城市路口。
就算故事到了尽头，我们也绝不退缩。
快转风景，被一再提醒失去森林。
落叶声音，停不住我们的关心。

就算是世界要崩溃，亲爱的我也绝不会落泪。
不放弃爱过的那种感觉，珍惜着有你记忆的一切。
就算是世界要倾斜，亲爱的我也绝不说离别。
尽管末日威胁，再强烈有爱就不累。
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sometime i just feel that in life, we will only start to appreciate life when knowing we facing the death in a very soon time.
well, you can listen to the song at the link >>> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IteE-HMVJ1M.
actually there is one thing i left out which shared by my room mate yesterday about relationship things.
he say that relationship for guy was divided into four process which is having good impression, take action to chase, like and finally love for the girl.
therefore it is not "fake" if you having many "like" feelings to many girls unless you had taken the action to chase all at once.

honestly, i just can blame myself for not taking much effort although meet failure.
it was quite "sucks" because the feeling was want good result but take no effort to study.
the most important thing shared by my room mate was you got to have the courage to chase instead of caring "men face" problem.
anyways, say what things also useless because the main problem if come from yourself.
one thing i found really true that if you dare to chase and very ready to meet failure, you will definitely success on chasing girl.
for example, you find 200 girl that you feel good at the first impression, then you message each of them about "come out to somewhere" like having movie.
it is confirmed that at least 10 people will agree out of the probability.

if it still can't works, try 1000 people and it will definitely have one.
however, i did not try it because i don't like this kind of chasing girl method.
therefore, i should say no girl want me in the end because say what things also useless since the main problem is come from myself.
maybe my problem about "her" until now, was just because "she" said NO and i already give up after that moment and sad till now.
finally i realize what is means by people said that when you blame a girl for not loving you back, try to find out the effort you do for chasing her.
somehow it was like when you are sadding here now, others guy are trying their best to chase her, give her happiness.
at last, just feel to share a very meaningful picture as below.so true right?
=(

Happy New Year 2012

2012-01-01T07:31:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 1.40pm.
luckily it was still not very late although slept at 7am yesterday because i thought i might wake up at 4pm.
anyways, i went to have my lunch at TBR but there is no more chicken rice and just left the "sambal sotong" rice.
seriously there is so less choice of food available at the place i stay.
when i at home, i just saw some news and see some information online.
honestly, i still thinking about the "casino dealer girl" last night at Genting Highland where i lose my money to due to her appearance was so attractive to me.
guess i would need some time to forget about it and it was just like a "love spells" poison.

when i share my story to my room mate, he told me that the dealer at Genting casino usually earns around RM7,000++ according to one of his relative work at there.
well, i was quite shock because i though it was just RM2K+ and feel like going to do if so desperate need money.
however, the disadvantage of doing the dealer job at casino at Genting was you need to risk whether you will be "bash" by the customer when they lose money because sometime this kind of thing was irrational when comes to money.
the only reason that you will got fired if you accidentally distributed wrong card or have any mistaken distributing the money.
overall it was quite a very earning job where don't need any type of college qualification.

besides, i don't know why i can't concentrate well in study for my exam soon.
moreover, the college seems to be closed today therefore i can't have a nice place to study and i can't study well when i am in house.
in fact, i still continue to "cook" some virtual food at Facebook Cafe World.
around 7pm i decided to go to Genting Klang for having my dinner since there is not much food choice left at TBR especially on Sunday.
during the moment at bus, i was talking a friend and attracted with the "Pat Kin Pat Sun Cafe" (不见不散茶餐厅) although at first i feel to go to Genting Klang for having dinner as below.it was so coincidence to meet some classmate from Penang there and i finally decided to meet them although at first don't feel to due to my "anti-social" feelings.

during the moment at there, somehow i just feel awkward because i don't know how to open topic especially there was all girls.
anyways, they went off after a while and i there goes having dinner alone again.
however, i do get to know my problems was due to don't know how to talks things and i believe every people do like others to talk more.
well, my experience at the cafe was quite cook because the "Fu Yong" friend rice that i order tasted quite nice which might because i am hungry during that moment.
overall the food was quite okay and the price ranged from RM7.90++ for the cheapest.
besides, i liked the Plum Jasmine tea because the taste suite me and i believe my "Lonely" or "Emo" drinks will somehow taste similar to that if one day i create my own brands.

anyways, below was the details of the cafe.
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G-21 & M-21 Platinum Victory,
128 Jalan Genting Klang.
(next to Colombia Hospital).
Mon-Sun: 8:00 am-2:00 am
No: 03-92831929
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after having my dinner at there, i finally reach my home at 8.35pm.
then i went to watch a movie which i feel so meaningful about it.
the name of the movie was "Hello Ghost 2010" and it is a Korean movie.
actually i don't like Korean movie because somehow it will reminds me about someone.
anyways, below was the synopsis of the movie.
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Sang-man (Tae-hyun Cha) is an adult orphan, with no job, no friends and no life.
So it's not surprising that he's seeking to end his life, only he's really bad at it and every time he tries to kill himself, he ends up in the hospital.
it is a wonderful film because it's funny, charming, poignant and others.
The revelations about the lives of the ghosts, about Yun-Soo's treatment of and by her father and the denouement were all exciting and touching.
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honesty, this movie reminds me about self reflecting because i seems to be a useless guy like him where i feel so lonely and like no meaning to live anymore.

after watching it, i feel the movie was so touch during the moment when all those ghost was actually his family member who protected him at the accident.
overall i would give it a 5 stars out of 5 and highly recommended it to watch.
well, you can have a look of the Hello Ghost (2010) full movie with English subtitle at the link >>> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kpCYfXtNmLY.
around 11pm i suddenly remembered that i need to borrow the financial calculator from one of my friend at Tarc hostel.
therefore i phoned him and will be met him there.
during the moment walking to the hostel, somehow it reminds me of "her" again.
upon reaching there, i saw my friend and have some chat with him.

i just feel what he say was so meaningful that "whenever you feel yourself don't know whether you can do it or not, just told yourself that at least you have give your best on doing it" when he shared a story of a boss promoted the new comer employee.
actually the reason he said so was because i don't even have any confidence of my resit paper.
don't know why every time when i feel down, there will be people cheering me up and i told myself should be grateful although have very less friend.
honestly, until now i did envy that old classmate can keep gathering in quite big group when compared myself usually "alone" having fun.
perhaps "satisfaction" of what we have now is the key to happiness in life.
at last, just wish you all have a Happy New Year 2012 today~
=D

Genting Highland Countdown 2012 No Fireworks

2011-12-31T14:07:00.001-08:00

today i woke up at 12pm.
then i went to have "Wan Tan Mee" as my lunch again.
actually i planned to go to Tarc library study during the afternoon but did not have the "mood".
it was because today was the new year eve of 2012 and i would like to wish you all a Happy New Year Eve 2012.
then i also don't know why i played the Facebook Cafe World after been quit for so long.
the cooking game seems to take almost 3 hour of my time where decorating and cooking those virtual things.
besides, i send my brother a SMS asked whether he got go Genting or not for the countdown and he just say will reply me soon.

around 7pm i went to Mali corner to have the "nasi lemak" again as my dinner.
when i back home, brother told me that he will coming to my house at 8.30pm but the driver was his friends.
anyways, i just prepared myself and waited for him to come.
finally they arrive and 9pm and we make a move to Genting Highland after fetching one of his friend at PV 8.
during the moment i car, the topic that they talk mostly related with salary and earnings things where i feel the no more "kiddy" topic as i grown up.
i just realized that if you are Malay and have an engineering certificate, it was just like a piece of cake for you to earn RM7~8K as a fresh graduate working for government.

well, i just feel quite unfair when heard more about "darkness politic" things and it will eventually relate to some issues that might be consider as "racist".
however, i got to know that the working class society nowadays will just demand more rewards in order to stay with their job by looking at the bonus thing.
actually there is another unfair issue i heard about which related to FELDA that they distribute bonuses in terms of land instead of cash reward especially you are the "Bumiputra" citizen.
somehow this kind of thing will be growing darker and darker while we just can envy those "darkness" things as a RM2K worker soon if we fortunate to get our degree certification.
finally we reach the Genting Highland resort at 10.15pm and there was full of parking where we need to drive further to get the parking place.

after that, we walked for some time and reached the Lobi at 10.40pm.
then we went to Marrybrown to have some snack before heading out to the Genting outdoor theme park to saw the fireworks event.
during the moment for the countdown, there was so many couple hugging each other and i just feel so lonely and jealous.
moreover, i did saw two girl which have similar face with "her" at different location and the feeling somehow come back a little.
when the clock reaches at 12am which is 2012, the operator announced that the fireworks event will be delayed until 12.30am due to the cloudy weather.
therefore we left no choice but just need to wait a while more.

however, when the time reached 12.30am, the operator announced that the fireworks events will be postponed to today 8pm and it has caused so many disappointment from people including me because i feel to find back those old feelings back in 2008.
anyways, we head to the Casino and it will be my very first time to visits there since i have just passed my birthday and officially a 21 years old adult.
well, the first thing i told myself is i have set a budget to lose which is RM50 maximum.
then i just saw other brother and his friend playing before starting to play myself.
after some moment, we head to the another table at second floor.
guess what, the dealer who was a girl looks 85% similar to "her" and my heart suddenly have those feelings back again.

therefore i quickly took out the notes and changed the chips for betting.
during my first bet, i had put RM5 on it but got rejected and being "laughed" due to the minimum bet for "Big Small" deal was RM25 chips.
while the cards being revealed, the feeling was quite special because i never gamble in casino before throughout my entire 21 years old.
however, i had lost RM50 within 10 minutes of playing and just can saw my brother play.
honestly, i did feel so happy because can keep stare at the dealer girl who looks so similar to "her" face and the feelings was so special like i fall in love with the dealer.
after 1 hour+ of enjoying myself staring on the dealer and games, my brother make a move to another table because say "no luck" at that table.

then we head on another table which quite far and saw so many type of gambling things.
throughout the moment at there, i had saw many different kind of gamble behavior.
they seems to be so "daring" when a guy pull out a RM10,000 chip which in a square jade purple chip colour instead like the round chips of RM500,RM100,RM50,RM25 and RM5.
however, there was another guy won RM14,000 by being so "brave" to bet 7K in one time.
furthermore, most of the gambler was old uncle aunty and some even grandmother grandfather and is addicted to gambling.
i heard my brother say some of them even dare to use all the money they have just for betting in hope to become "rich" people.
besides, i can saw many "youngster" become the trainee dealer of Genting.

well, i believe their salary will be around RM2K although did not have any college qualification and i asked myself will i ended up like them if really "no road" to go?
on the other hand, it was so coincident that i saw some classmate there especially at 2.30am.
anyways, we make a move around 4am and the time was like endless in there.
i feel my RM50 loses at there was like paying for 2 cup of free water and orange juice.
through my first experience of gambling in casino, i found myself able to control myself because after i had lost the RM50 to the "girl dealer i like", i just saw other people gambling although still have some money to gamble.
my brother was quite lucky to win the 1:8 tie card game and told me that the RM50 i lost was a tuition fee for "Uncle Lim" lesson.

during the time we walked down to the car, my brother passed me RM50 and say treat it as "bonus" for me although i refused to accept at first.
well, i understand what he really means by giving me was in hope i can learn the true meaning of why people keep advices other not to gamble.
besides, there seems to be some accident while we go down.
actually i have been keep thinking the "dealer girl" till now and couldn't forget her face just because she looks so alike with "her".
honestly, there is one thing quite "evil" thought i have that is if one day there was a girl which is a prostitute and looks so alike with "her", will myself accept to pay the RM1,000 as prostitution fee?

well, the answer seems "yes" because it was a thing i never have and experience before especially it was a girl you liked so much.
now i truly understand why one of my tutor said that gambling and prostitution was the most earning business.
finally i arrived back my TBR home at 4.40am.
then i take a bath and went to update my blog because i just don't wish that i lost some memory i feel now if i update back tomorrow.
in addition, i just feel proud of myself that i have completed my 365 post for this 2011 year and hopefully i will have a better 2012 ahead.
at last, i would like to wish you all a Happy New Year 2012 although Genting Highland countdown 2012 has no fireworks.(although don't have firework on Genting today but you can see it here)
XD

Ochado Setapak 茶の道

2011-12-30T08:44:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 2.10pm.
it was like OMG again but i know it is useless to said such things.
then i prepared myself and went to have chicken rice as my lunch although i know the choices was very less at TBR.
while back home, i just continue to do some necessary online stuff as usual.
around 3.50pm my friend SMS me that he was at the reading room at Tarc H block and i prepared myself to meet him there.
when i reach there, there was a couple around but they went off after few moment.
then it just left me and my friend and the surrounding was great to study due to less people.
while my friend teaches some important notes to study for my resit paper, i feel stress again.

it was because there was so many calculation need to memorize and the feelings was like study a chapter without attending any class since it was a resit paper.
honestly, i did feel don't want to study but my friend said you just need to find the motivation to do it where i feel maybe the "SHU thing" was my motivation but still not very good.
what i feel now was i feel to get the refund that being paid and told my dad i am not suitable to study anymore but there is still so much difficult need to deal with.
anyways, we make a move after some time and went to Genting Klang to have our dinner.
it was my first time to have my dinner at the restaurant Ye Ye (爷爷糖水店).
well, i just like the name of the restaurant and the taste of the meal was just okay while the price cost around RM5.50~RM8 for different dishes.

after that, we went to Chat Time bubble tea which near Platinum Victoria 128 Setapak because my friend said there was a buy 1 free 1 promotion starting from 6pm-8pm.
while we reach there, there was a lot of people which almost 35++ queuing up just for the promotion.
actually i don't have much interest with the promotion since i have tried it at Chat Time Pavilion and the taste was just okay only for me.
when we make a move from there, i suggested that why don't we try the Ochado Setapak (茶の道) which just beside it and seems don't have much people.
well, i have chosen the 3Q passionate tea and the great thing about this Ochado bubble tea was you can choose the sugar level you want from 25%,50%,75% and others.

besides, there was a promotion when you spend RM10 in single receipt, you can get a Hokkaido Mille Crepe only RM6.90 (original price RM8.90) as picture below.anyways, i just taken some picture of the surrounding of the area as below. (sorry, picture quality sucks due to don't have "pro" camera)furthermore, i just liked the "thousand layer cake" although it said it was the Japanese mille crepe because the looks of it was like the picture taken from other friend during their Melaka trip that i hope can join them last time.
anyways, the taste was so special and i can give it 10 out of 10 stars for the cake below.on the other hand, i did have some thought about the Ochado VS the Chat time setapak and believe that both of them will earn very much although competing each other.

for example, the reason i go to Ochado was due to too many people queuing up at Chat Time although the price was 50% cheaper.
from the time i sitting there, i believe their one day earning of money collected was around RM1,000 to RM2,000.
it was because you just imagine yourself that one cup cost RM5.50~RM6.90 and the cost i believe might below RM2.
in order to earn RM2,000 clear profit per day, you just need to sell 666 cup of bubble tea. (RM5.50-RM2 cost = RM3.50 x 666 cup = RM2,331)
while earning RM2K every day, it will eventually have RM60,000 every month.
666 cup means that you need to sell 55 cup every hour for 12 business operating hour.

if it is hard to sell that amount, just cut it to selling 27+ cup every hour and it will also earn about RM30,000 where after cutting all employee and utility cost, you will at least still have RM10k.
therefore it just explain why so many people like to open bubble tea business.
actually i did feel to open this kind of bubble tea business and it will be named something related to "Lonely" bubble tea or "Emo" bubble tea. (does the name sound "special"? >.<)
if not mistaken, i do see this kind of "bubble tea" packaging during my experience at Printing Fair few years ago and did laughed that why would people want this kind of thing.
however, looking back now i just can jealous about it and being laughed myself.
so now back to the last question, how to get the start up $$$ if you did not have any asset or came from rich family?

therefore all the things above thing i talk was just a crap which like a person know Mc Donalds will definitely earn money but just don't have the money to start up.
actually there is way to earn fast money by doing illegal thing and you can "re-legal" back when you success but i just don't have the courage to do so.
while arrive back home, i just procrastination again although still need to face exam.
actually there was a blog friend who offer me to teach me the Business Finance but it was my own problem for "anti social" again for not finding him.
later at 1am, i just went to wash my cloth and hopefully there will be no raining tonight.
in conclusion, i just can envy others people success and happiness but did not useful thing although knowing the society judging people by how much money you earn and your successful story.
~.~

Magical Tarc Vending Machine

2011-12-29T08:51:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 11am.
then i went to have "Wan Tan Mee" as my lunch again and really enjoy the noodles very much although it was just a normal things.
then i prepared myself and went to Tarc cyber center to print some last document to submit the
Sheffield Hallam University application form.
however, most of the computer was not working properly but i manage to find a good guy who willing to borrow his computer for me to print those stuff.
after printed it, i head back to the Tarc SBS office to submit the document.
while writing down those document and the application for refund RM200 of caution money, i saw some ex-classmate there.

somehow i feel quite embarrass while saw one of my friend looking through my document because i my result was failed one but still dare to apply.
after that, i go to Tarc library to do my final revision for WBMM subject.
around 4.30pm i went out from the library to have my evening tea time.
actually i still thinking about my "Vending Machine Story" and if the girl appear again, i told myself that i will definitely have the bravery to get the number from her.
however, i do know the chances will be very small and what was weird that the vending machine don't have Milo again.
moreover, the price has dropped down to RM1 instead of RM1.50 on that day.
therefore i left no choice but to choose the coffee because the money was inserted inside.

honestly, i don't like coffee at all because it is bitter and it will reminds me back about "her" since "she" is the only one who suggested me to drink coffee while "she" liked white coffee.
while sitting in the bench, it was so coincidence to saw my ex-classmate walk out from there.
somehow it also recall me back my truth hurts memory at that day outside of the library.
in the end, i just can surrender to the God that why it can be so many "coincidence" things.
maybe this is the law of attraction where what you think and it will be like that.
anyways, it will be the only my Tarc vending machine story that no one will have this kind of experience.
when i continue to study for the subject, somehow there is so many thought that run through my mind again thinking back old things.

besides, i feel so difficult when doing the Business Finance revision because there was no answer for my pass year.
at once i did feel give up of study because i did not have the correct answer for all those pass year question.
i did look on the Tarc pass year exam paper session at library but there just have the question and not the answer for every year.
furthermore, i feel difficult when doing the revision alone while other friend have a group of friend to hang out to study together.
around 6.50pm i went to PappaRich Express TARC to have my dinner and ordered the curry noodle as picture below.
it was my first time to have my dinner at night there and it might be my last meal for my Tarc journey untill now because it was my last semester.
on the other hand, i just hope can get some of have some footprint before leaving Tarc and don't know why i just taken the picture of Tun Tan Siew Sin building as my footprint in Tarc.then i just head back to library to continue study after my dinner.
around 8.10pm i make a move from there and finally took a picture of my "Magical Tarc Vending Machine" as picture below.when i reach home, i just search some information online and look some news.
there is an interesting thing that told by a rich man in Hong which is Lee Kar Seng said about the role of certification in our life in Chinese as below.

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文憑不過是一張車票，碩士是高鐵，大學是自強號，專科是普通車，高中是站票。到站後，都下車找工作，才發現老闆並不太關心你是怎麼來的，只關心你會做什麼。香港首富李嘉誠
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it means that "certification was just a ticket, professor is a rail high speed train, master is a speed train, specialist is an normal car specialist which high school was a train ticket. In the end of the destination, everyone will drop off to find a job, then we only realized that out boss did not care where we came from, they only care about what you can do."
i just feel sad because i seems to made many mistake and lost many things throughout my life.
moreover, it also proved that what was more important in life was about the money we earn rather than the certification.

while saw one of my friend posted something related to Forex, i just feel interested again when looked the earning was almost 500$ USD per day where every hour can earn about 30 USD.
when he chat with me, i feel that he seems very serious while talking about this matter because it has been a long time i did not see him and he might feel weird about me.
somehow i just can afford to use RM1,000 for invest but he said it require at least RM2,000.
throughout my entire life of knowledge about Forex, it is the only way to earn fast money and it also the fastest way to lose all money just in a day.
seriously i just hope i can know the reason why i lost all money last time when playing it.
furthermore, i chat with one of my close friend again and heard many of his experience about life and feel so meaningful about it.

really feel thankful to him for comforting me for not regrets of the mistaken step.
he said that don't scare to being look down by people in life because it can make you stronger.
moreover, he was proud that he earn by himself and not using any parent money at all although worked as some low class job.
honestly, i just feel quite useless again about myself in some way when heard his story.
at last, he said that don't regret of what you had studied or done in life.
it was just like having a relationship with a girl because if you fail, you also gained experience because at least you have tried, if you never try, later you will regret why that time you no try to express your feeling.
at least when you express out, you will know she don't like you and this matter was just simple as that.
therefore it should not be as complicated as i thought till now.
in conclusion, i just hope i can blog until i did not exist in this world because it was the only thing that was so meaningful for me to remember and recall back at my older life.
>.<

Useless Guy

2011-12-28T10:32:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 12.25pm.
however, i still lying down at the bed until "accidentally" fall asleep.
the moment i woke up again was 1.45pm.
well, i did have some weird dreams where i had taken a photograph with the Hong Kong famous actress Andy Lau but have some conflict with a person that i help her to take the photo inside the dream.
anyways, it was quite funny when thinking back the dream now.
actually the reason i has been woke up lately was because i saw some of the "坷垃傳奇" episode and it finally ends at episode 72.
however, the last episode of the movie does not have good ending of being a good guy.

after that, my father phoned and told me to take the bank draft for the Sheffield Hallam University and Tarc at my hometown.
therefore i decided to meet him at Klang KTM and took the bus to Wangsa Maju.
when i reach KL Central, i went to Mc Donald to have my lunch because there was still 5 minutes left to 3pm before the lunch promotion end.
besides, i also realized that they require resit for refill the coca cola because last time no need for redeem extra refill.
maybe it was because they afraid that there might people just keep the cup for refill next time as told by a friend last time.
during my journey on the train, i feel so bored and phoned one of my very close friend to chat.

somehow i shared my "Vending Machine Story" to him and he too say i should took the opportunity to take phone number from the girl last night.
i just like the was he was confidence as usual where his belief was no need to consider so much thing before doing a thing.
actually it was quite true after thinking because if i afraid this afraid that, there will be no action taken in the end.
moreover, i also asked him to plan see how both of us take out RM1,000 to start some business because looking at our age now seems not very young already.
there was few quite "funny" thought that i thought about which is selling fish ball or bubble tea at Pasar Malam.

however, if i do such job will definitely looked down by many people and there is no need to study at college until now right?
around 4.30pm i reached Klang KTM and still talking with my friend while waiting my father.
then my father arrived and pass me the £300 for SHU and RM200 Tarc bank draft.somehow this incident just make myself think i seems quite useless in some way.
then i just took the train back to my KL house.
when i reach my home, i re-check the SHU application and it seems that i lack of the passport size photograph.
then i went out again to take bus and went back to Wangsa Maju to print the photo at Fujifilem.
finally i arrive back home at 9.40pm.

to day seems to be a very rush day for me to rush here and there.
later on, i just settle some online deal and earned rm50.
seriously nowadays i feel myself like a useless guy in some way.
sometime i really feel to express myself by just shouting out those bad words but just can't.
moreover, i did envy why they can have a community while i can't?
in the end, i just can staying here express my unhappiness while "jealousing" other people happiness.
at last, just feel to share a picture that i saw which said that "i am not totally useless, i can be used as a bad example" and maybe i can really used as a bad example for a useless guy.=(

Vending Machine Story

2011-12-27T09:01:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 8.55am.
at first i was planning to go to Tarc college library but ended up settling some online stuff.
around 11am i finally settle it and prepared myself to go to the library.
however, there was so "religion people" spreading their "god things" to my housemate in front of the door and this incident was quite common in Tarc because they want to find "members" to join their religion.
anyways, i waited and waited until 12.10pm and they finally went out.
then i head to Tarc Canteen 2 to have "curry chee cheong fun" as my lunch.
don't know why this time i feel so full until can't finish although it just cost RM4.
during the moment at Tarc library, there was so many people until i barely find place to sit.

after turning from first floor to 3rd floor, i finally found one place.
somehow i feel quite tired and sleepy after one hour passed.
while continue study my SMDM revision, i just fall asleep at the table.
after some time passed when awaken to study, i feel tired again and went out from the library to take some fresh air.
when i was outside, don't why i was attracted to the vending machine that located in front of the library.
besides, there was a girl with her friend before me were lack of coins for the machine.
therefore i went to front and asked how much she lack of and it was just RM0.10 where i passed to her.

however, it seems that the vending machine was not working and i suggested that there was another near the DK block.
in the end, we managed to buy it there and she seems to like coffee too.
after that, i just continue to summary all the SMDM lecture notes.
when thinking back the vending machine incident, i did liked a bit about the girl because she was cute and i believe she was still single where just studying diploma.
honestly, i did have the thought of asking her phone number but did not do itdur to keepthinking about my failure last time.
actually in Tarc college, i had saw too much beautiful girl throughout my entire study journey life here but just don't have the "special feeling" that i encounter before about "her".

anyways, it might before i never interact much with some girls, therefore the special just won't automatic generate.
besides, i also realized that actually there was no "true love" as said by people because it was actually about how much effort you put to chase a girl.
for an example, you and me was stranger and we never meet before, how the hell i can make you fall in love with me?
well, the answer was good interaction and communication with them when you going out with someone at the first impression and you feel good, you will eventually like it after that.
moreover, it was like if you did not put effort to study, there will be no way to get a good result and so do a friendship or relation is.

furthermore, i do self reflect again when thinking those matter that i encounter last time with my classmate by just asking myself the same question.
how do i perceive other when others did not talk at all with me?
therefore the answer is obviously just the same when i asked myself question before blaming others for not interact with me.
sometime in life, i feel that you just have to face many failure and you will only realize in the end.
as i heard before from a friend, if one people say the bad things about you, the might be wrong.
however, if many people say the same bad things about you, it is the time to think about yourself whether it is wrong or not.
anyways, i managed to summary all the notes in time and went back home at 6.05pm.

therefore i would label this small incident as my "Vending Machine Story" that i encounter in life.
then i went out to have my dinner with some housemate.
at night, i just pass some online deals with friend and look on some news.
then i also added up some new page on the header of blog to try out something.
overall today i had done my responsibilities to summary the note of my first subject for my exam although it was quite late.
later on, i went to have "Poligami Ayam" again as my supper at Ampau Enterprise with some housemate.
at last, just feel to share a funny picture on how to get a relationship as below.first, you need to buy a ship, name it relation and now you have a relationship.
XD

Boxing Day

2011-12-26T06:57:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 3pm.
in deed it was quite "sucks" to wake up so late because i did have a mindset of it was a public holiday yesterday.
besides, i just realized that today was known as Boxing Day which is traditionally a day following Christmas which is 26 December when wealthy people and homeowners in the United Kingdom would give a box containing a gift to their servants according to Wikipedia.
anyways, just know that at UK Boxing Day shoppers grab bargains as record number of stores open and prices are slashed by up to 80% at the link >>> Here.
to me, my first impression about the boxing day is like a real boxing things where it is a combat sport which two people fight each other using their fists.

on the other hand, it was also known as a present for the workers because many poorly paid workers were required to work on Christmas Day and took the following day off to visit their families.
as they prepared to leave, their employers would present them with Christmas boxes.
anyways, i just have some "mihun" as my so call "lunch" after that.
then i just "stick" with my computer again.
around 6pm we went out to have some "Xiao Chao" as our dinner.
after that, i prepared myself to back KL house and brother fetch me to LRT station.
i reached RapidKL Asia Jaya LRT station at 8.15pm and feel the surrounding was so quiet.
finally i reach my KL house at 9pm after taken cab from Wangsa Maju.

today i really did not do anything much due to woke up late.
therefore i had planned that tomorrow will be going to Tarc college library to study.
at last, just wish to share "7 Steps to Happiness" that i found of the internet.
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Think Less, Feel More
Frown Less, Smile More
Talk Less, Listen More
Judge Less, Accept More
Watch Less, Do More
Complain Less, Appreciate More
Fear Less, Love More_____________________________
i just feel that sometime it might sound so easy to say, but when comes to action, it require a lot of effort to do it and the main things still goes back to yourself.
anyways, wish you having a Happy Boxing Day if you have the chance to experience this day.
=D

Merry Christmas 2011

2011-12-25T09:53:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 12.35pm.
it was Christmas therefore i would like to wish you guys to have a happy Merry Christmas 2011.
according to Wiki, Christmas day is an annual commemoration of the birth of Jesus Christ, celebrated generally on December 25 as a religious and cultural holiday by billions of people around the world.
although i am not a Christian, i do hope can experience the Christmas culture.
then i just have chicken rice as my lunch bought by brother and he went out with his girlfriend again for some activities.
during the afternoon, i spend my time saw some news and information.
actually, i do look back my past for 2010 Christmas again.

honestly, i don't think myself had changed much looking on the post.
it seems that i still feel Money still plays a very important role in life.
there is a picture from 9Gag which is quite funny to share about said that first you get the money, then you get the power, so you can get the princess as picture below.besides, i just spend my time playing 3 round of Dota match during the evening.
around 6.20pm i prepared myself because want to go to our neighbour daughter wedding at "Dewan Serbaguna Dato Ahmad Razali Klang" hall.
we reached there around 7.30pm sharp stated on the wedding invitation but there was no people came and i had taken a picture during that moment as below.at first, we thought we went to wrong venue but it was not.

honestly, i feel so alone at there because it was me and father only since mother, sister and brother had went to their own activities.
actually i was not racist but that feelings auto generated during the moment because the hall was just very few Chinese since it was an Indian wedding.
after waited for almost 2 hour, the events finally started with the Indian dance and followed by some buffet dinner.
somehow i feel that money was important again if you would like to prepare a special wedding ceremony with your love ones.
besides, i also feel that we need to do what's other people like instead of our own liking in some things in our life.

if you just follow your old liking, you will just end up two possibility which is you either success or fail badly.
furthermore, i realized that most of the other religion people came will go after having the dinner including us because there seems nothing more related to us.
anyways, i do get to know more deeper about Indian weddings culture through this event.
after that, we head to "Berkeley" which is one of my relative house for the Christmas party.
it seems that many relative has went back home as we arrive because it was late.
then i just have some durian, turkey and some smash potato at there.
when talking with my cousin, it seems that what he want most was to have a girlfriend before went out to society to work although we was same years old.

until now, i don't have the definitely answer about love relationship thing because it will happens differently with different people.
finally i arrived home at 11pm as my "Christmas Outing Day".
later on, i received a very "Emotional" message from my brother at Facebook as below.
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P/s : Please bear in mind that I'm not scolding you because i'm a maniac or love to scold. I just can't tell you face to face that I just too care about you.....If you can do the above successfully & treat yourself with dignity, I would love you like a my precious one and please have my words, I will treat you like an adult and share with you more on things that we could have missed in the past!!!
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the reason he say so was because i did not plan my time properly, keep fooling around doing useless thing and never study hard.
seriously the message that he wrote to me was so long and i feel so stress again because knowing that is my problem but still don't wish to change.
in life, i do get a lot of "advice" but in the end, i did not change much.
what i feel in life the most painful is knowing something you know, but yourself still don't wish to change.
somehow i can foresee what my future when looking my laziness attitude now.
it seems that ownselves problem also haven settle, how do myself want even think about "her" although i did feel to send her an wishing SMS but did not do it in the end.

seriously i feel myself have too many feelings happened in just a day.
sometime i just wondering is it because i found no one to talk about or blogging too much?
suddenly i remember a beggar searching for "valuable things" around rubbish at the night while on the way back home just now.
i just wondering would i be ended up like him when thinking about the things i facing now.
the word that popped out inside my mind was the "少壮不努力，老大徒伤悲" which means "if you did not hardworking now, you will face a serious problem when you are old" as told my old school teacher last time.
actually the Christmas day today seems like a self reflection of myself again.
hopefully i can change but not just by saying only.
>.<

A Thousand Years Christina Perri

2011-12-24T08:57:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 12.30pm.
however, i went to sleep back due to my "laziness" feelings.
the moment i woke up again was 2.30pm and just cook some Korean noodle as my lunch.
then brother and his girlfriend will be going Jusco Bukit Tinggi for shopping which left me alone because mother had went to temple for this few day.
actually today was the Christmas Eve and i just looked back what i was doing last year 2010 at this same day.
it seems that i seems to be keep worrying all the time at the "Gift Box Exchange Christmas" last year post and did recall some memory about "her".
honestly, i feel myself started to like looking my past instead of looking forward.

what had happened already happens but until now i still wish i can go back that time.
besides, it seems that some classmate has went outing today but yet i still at home sitting in front of the computer looking at some funny 9Gag post.
there is a post i feel quite nice to share about which is the "Meme Proposal Tim Audrey" at the link >>> Here.
it was quite romantic and touching proposal and i believe every girl do hope their life partner can do something special that can leave a strong memorable memory in their life.
anyways, below was the both couple blog and you can know more details about it.
Audrey’s blog – http://www.fourfeetnine.com/2011/12/11/the-proposal.
Tim’s blog – http://www.timothytiah.com/2011/12/21/video-of-our-meme-proposal.

someday, i hope myself can make something special for my future lover because it everything we do will become a great memory for ourselves one day.
on the other hand, i started to like the song that played within the video which called as "A Thousand Years" by Christina Perri.
i found the song was quite meaningful and below was the lyrics of it.
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Heartbeats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more
Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed that I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more
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well, you can listen to the song at the link >>> Here.
around 6.30pm i went to feed the dog and my Indian neighbour have some wedding events for her daughter.
then i just have KFC colonel meal as my dinner alone because all my family member has gone out and i just "facing" back my PC after that.
honestly, my feeling for today really feel to go out with someone although i know i need to study for my exam.
although i am not Christian, sometime i still wondering whether Santa will really come at 12am of the day of 24th.
anyways, wish you all having a Happy Christmas Eve 2011.
^.^V

Loong Foong Seafood Restaurant Roast Duck PJ

2011-12-23T10:17:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 1.20pm.
it seems that i had missed the resit paper lecture which will be joining together with junior at 10am this morning.
anyways, it means that i will be going for the exam without any guidelines due to own problem.
after that, i just have chicken rice as my lunch before preparing myself back hometown.
then i just search some information and played two round of Dota match with my room mate and some secondary classmate.
around 5.20pm i prepared myself and went to take bus to Wangsa Maju.
when i was inside the train, i just think a lot and it was quite coincidence when saw one of my ex-classmate was there too.

well, i just managed to say "hi,bye" to him when i reach the Taman Paramount LRT Station at 6.25pm.
during the moment at LRT station, i waited for my brother to come and he told me that he need to went back office again.
somehow i just feel that this is what i will be facing when coming out to society which is no matter what when your boss phoned, you just need to go.
the only way for having "time freedom" was becoming your own boss.
until the time he come, i had waited almost one hour which half hour standing and another hour sitting on chair while listening to my music.
when he arrive, he asked where to have our lunch and i suggested the roast duck restaurant.

the name of the restaurant was called as "Loong Foong Seafood Restaurant" which famous for their roast duck which around Taman Raramount Petaling Jaya.
actually i had pass by the shop many time every time my brother fetch me back home and now finally have the chance to taste it.
well, we ordered half of the duck with 3 dishes.
the taste of the duck was so good because the "skin" was so crispy and below was the picture i took using my phone.i just can say it was like the Peking Duck that i saw on Astro Discovery channel last time.
however, the duck was quite expensive which cost around RM2x+ for half of it and the total cost of our meal was around RM70.

anyways, below was the details address for the restaurant.
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Loong Foong Seafood Restaurant Taman Paramount PJ
1, Jalan 20/13,
Paramount Garden,
46300 Petaling Jaya,
Selangor Darul Ehsan,
Malaysia.

Contact Telephone number: 03-7876-9045 / 012-202-9045
Opening hours:
4.30pm-9pm. (closed alternate Sundays)
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after having the meal, i just feel super full until can't eat anymore because the dish was quite big and we were just 3 person to finish the 4 dishes.
then we head to my brother house a while to take something.
during the time at car, i just feel so tired and fall asleep.
finally i arrived my house at 9.30pm and mother said she will be going temple this few day.
then i just watch the 坷垃傳奇 movie which i like although it was quite "noob" at the link >>> Here.
actually i still wondering that it was quite coincidence to able watch this movie because both the first few episode was just uploaded 3 days ago.
overall today mood was quite okay and happy to eat the duck meal.
XD

Happy Dong Zhi 2011 冬至快乐

2011-12-22T10:24:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 12pm.
when i awake, i remember that there is a consultation for my resit paper at Tarc SBS office.
then i quickly prepared myself and went there.
when i reach there, it seems that the tutor has gone out and the other tutor said he will be back by 2pm after having lunch.
besides, it was so coincidence that i saw some ex-classmate and here goes those "feelings" again.
honestly, my feeling for that moment was if my present can make others annoyed, the best way was to walk away from there.
anyways, i realized that this incident just make myself clearer that even when i go UK for my degree, it will just remain the same unless myself overcome or solve it.

after that, i went to school canteen to have "Wan Tan Mee" as my lunch when i found that they were selling those noodles.
somehow my mind keep thinks a lot about the morning things while i was eating.
when i reach home, i just online a while and prepared myself to college again.
i reach there around 2.10pm and the tutor was there.
however, the tutor told me that he did not in charge anymore about the resit paper that i will sit for which is no more "tips" where i need to study all.
moreover, he also say that every tutor will just concern about the subject that they teach and do not know on other paper when i ask him whether he know about my paper.
then i just walk back home with quite down feelings.

while walking back home, there is an incident that leave a strong memory on my mind until now.
it was about a Toyota Vios car that plate number 4444 drove very fast and the moment it passed me, i did have a very scary thought on myself that what if i have been knocked by the car, all the thing i worry and stress about will gone when i does not exist.
seriously that was what i thought about during the moment and feel so hopeless.
anyways, i just feel so tired again and went to search some online information to make myself energized with things.
it seems that today was the Winter Solstice festival and also know as Dong Zhi Festival which is one of the most important festivals celebrated by the Chinese and other East Asians during the Dongzhi solar term on or around December 22 when sunshine is weakest and daylight shortest.

therefore i would like to wish you all a Happy Dong Zhi 2011 冬至快乐.
to me this festival was about reunion with family while eating the Chinese "Tang Yuan".
actually i did review back my post every year start from 2008, 2009 to 2010 and i feel quite special to look it back those days but no one will really understand about it.
around 6.40pm i make a move to Restaurant Wan Yit (唯一美食中心) at Genting Klang with housemate to buy some "Tang Yuan".
it seems that there was a lot of people queuing up and it cost RM3.80 for 3 pieces of it.
i just wondering that they might earn RM1500+ today by just selling those "Tang Yuan".
besides, it seems that there was some beautiful girl make their own "tang yuan" to sell for earning extra income.

it was because they do not have any stall and just put behind the car for sale.
finally i arrive back home around 10pm and search some information.
somehow i did feel interest about Google Adsense when one of my friend talk about it.
he told me that an introvert person can be success in front of computer.
honestly, this thing really make me think even more things about myself and self reflection about what i am doing.
perhaps i should try the "method" where it will be a 5 figure in term of USD earning for every month if it really works using the GA.
i just feel weird that i seems not very like money although know the ways to earn it "legally".

besides, i manage to find back one of my favourite secondary "chinese puppet" show when my room mate talked some related to childhood memory.
the title of the movie was "坷垃傳奇"where the plot of the movie in the link >>> Here.
well, it was about a very smart young boy who name "Tu Ke La" has helped to solve many problem using his own intelligent.
i just manage to watch some episode using the Youku but it was the last backup at the link >>> Here.
moreover, it had recall me back the song of it and below was the lyrics of the song.
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日月圓圓天地大呀，生下來不知親爹媽呀。
吃的百家粗茶飯呀，穿的百家舊衣襪。
無牽無掛無憂愁呀。
睡在哪裡，哪裡就是家。
小坷垃。

歲月長長風與大呀，打起漁鼓樂呀樂哈哈。
喜鵲飛來同唱歌呀，黃狗領路搖尾巴。
世上的難題萬萬千呀，難不住聰明，聰明的小坷垃。
世上的難題萬萬千呀，難不住聰明，聰明的小坷垃，
小坷垃。
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actually i had a hard time finding back the song and you can listen it at the link >>> Here although it might sound "noob".
at the end, i just feel happy that i manage to recall this memory and hopefully i can watch all of it one day because currently need to face the exam.
sigh.
T.T

Do I Qualify To Study Abroad

2011-12-21T10:17:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 9.25am.
as i awakens, i realized that i was late for the Case Study tutorial and quickly prepared myself and go to attend the class.
when i reach there, it seems that only two friend came and the tutor just discuss about the coursework thing.
anyways, i just realized that if i fail this subject, it means that i can only retake it during March of 2013 which is not even next year.
in the end, the tutor still don't wish to tell us the exact amount of student who fail and he just say many had failed in individual coursework.
after the class, i follow friend to Little Eastern Cafe (小東方) at Genting Klang.

there is a promotion of RM4.30 for breakfast set which contain 2 pieces of bread, 2 half boiled egg and a "Cham" (combination of coffee and tea) drink.
after some moment, it seems that my ex-classmate has came too.
somehow my feeling for the moment really don't know how to express it out although i know myself is think too much.
i just can comfort myself to keep look forward after it has been some time but for there is one thing for sure which is i will never reverse back the time to change what had happened.
around 12.30pm we make a move and head back to school to meet the tutor for checking the website marks.
after that, i went to take my certified form.

besides, i also realized that we can get RM200 if we apply the application for refund of caution money which will credit back to our Public bank.
however, it seems that there was no form and guess i would print it from Tarc Intranet.
during the moment at the tutor room, i just feel so stress and asked myself do i really qualify to study abroad at Sheffield Hallam University United Kingdom.
honestly, inside my heart i don't even think i am qualify using those fail class result and yet don't know i can clear it or not.
my friend advice me that if i really got heart want to go, those subject definitely can be cleared.
my feeling for the moment really feel to shout out because i seems like a "BKC" who just simply spend money and fooling around.

sometime i feel that there is much more people who is qualify than me should go.
for now, i just can push myself to do something that i don't know can or not.
furthermore, i did think that what if i really can go, but when i reach there, looking at "her" and old classmate might feel depressed which might end up being the same like now?
actually there is much more thing to be think about until i feel so stress to even think about it.
when i reach home, i just take a nap because my head feel so pain when thinking the UK things.
the moment i woke up again was 7.10pm.
then i just have "Wan Tan Mee" at the new stall as my dinner but just feel awful to eat because they just have spicy type which i never try before because normally it was in soya sauce type.
when i reach home, i just look out all the resit paper and there is so much thing to study.

it was so true that what the tutor said last time which is "don't ever fail, because every time you fail, you must have extra effort to study again compared with the student who pass".
later on, father phoned up and ask me about the deadline for the submission.
honestly, until now i haven tell him my exact result and how a failure i am in academic but now still want to go UK?
at the end, just can blame myself for what's caused the "me" of now.
seriously i do hope someone can replace me but that will never happens because every success have their own effort.
this incident really show to myself that old time effort really play a very important role for the future and most of people will care much about those people who fail.

during the time looking on the books, i really feel to fall asleep.
then i just do looks on some news and online things that i like which can make me energized.
looking at the time table for my exam really can make me nervous as picture below.it seems that there is a new bank notes of RM20 showed by Dato Seri Najib Tun Abdul Razak at the Auditorium Bank Negara Kuala Lumpur today as picture below.the reverse side of each note features different elements of nature, tradition, culture, flora, fauna and the new RM20 banknotes will be issued in July 2012.
it is also include the RM1, RM5, RM10,RM50 and RM100 for the latest Ringgit Malaysia currency for 2012 as picture below.you can have a look of the new series of Malaysian banknotes at the Youtube link >>> Here.
later on at midnight, i just have "nasi lemak" as my supper.
until now the stress level never stop when looked more info about my qualification to study abroad because 25% of advance diploma result will be carried to SHU.
sigh.
=(

Mission Impossible Ghost Protocol 2011

2011-12-20T10:55:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 1.30pm.
as i see the time, i already know that i had skipped the two morning class which is the Strategic Marketing & Decision Making and Web-based Multimedia for Marketing tutorial.
i just feel quite down to miss it because it was my own fault for missing the class.
moreover, both class was the last day where the tutor will give the best "guideline" to face our final exam.
anyways, it was no use to talk anything now since it has already happen.
then i went to have "Wan Tan Mee" as my lunch alone and finally got stock.
just feel quite happy to eat it although it was just a simple noodle.
after that, my friend phone me up whether want to watch movie or not and i had agreed.

actually i plan to study today but give myself an excuse to outing for last day.
besides, it seems that the Maxis Movies buy 1 free 1 promotion seems to have server problem every time where until now haven fully fix it.
after that, i went to Tarc CITC to print some document for certification and went to Tarc SBS office to submit it.
honestly, i feel so embarrass during the time i submit the document when the staff seems to saw my bad result for the application.
then my friend arrived and fetch us to the Wangsa Walk to buy the tickets.
we reach there around 4.10pm and it seems that the Mission Impossible Ghost Protocol 2011 movie seats was not very good.

then we walk around there a while and decided to go to Jusco Kepong TGV to watch the movie.
somehow my heart did have some interest to buy the iPhone 4S when saw one of my friend just bought one.
anyways, i just know that the Siri function seems to require internet connection to use because at first i was thought it does not require internet to run it.
since it require internet connection to play it, therefore i seems to not very impress with it because it was just like other apps and i told myself should satisfy what i have now.
after that, we head to Selayang Mall to spend our time there.
then we meet with my friend brother and we head to the Sushi King at there.
i did learn a lot through the experience he shared.

first of it was we must appreciate the friendship that we have now because it was the most valuable where after we come out work, our friend will become less and having a stressful life.
besides, it seems that every sales man will be very stress but that is the only way to be rich.
for an example, if a employee can achieve a RM200,000 sales a month, he will be eventually get RM8,000 as a commission.
once again i feel that it was quite true that if you come out work after secondary school, the chances of getting a girlfriend will be higher.
in the end, it just depend on yourself whether what you want in life.
anyways, the sushi meal was treated by my friend brother and feel meaningful when he say that "when you come out, you can treat me back" where i heard this many time from other people.

around 7.30pm we reach the TGV at Jusco Kepong and it was my first time to watch there.
below was the synopsis for the Mission Impossible Ghost Protocol 2011 movie review.
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Blamed for the terrorist bombing of the Kremlin, IMF operative Ethan Hunt is disavowed along with the rest of the agency when the President initiates "Ghost Protocol".
Left without any resources or backup, Ethan must find a way to clear his agency's name and prevent another attack.
To complicate matters further, Ethan is forced to embark on this mission with a team of fellow IMF fugitives whose personal motives he does not fully know.
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besides, it seems that buying sweet corn and coke had become my habit when watching movie at cinema.

after watching the movie, i feel it was a nice one and would rate it as 4.5 star out of 5 stars.
i just feel that the cars and contact lens technology was so cool.
well, you can have a look the trailer at the link>>> Here.
after that, we head to "Gei Dak Sek" (记得食) food stall to have some supper where they seems to sell various type of dessert.
i just have some noodles as my supper where other friend having the ice blend fruits and others.
somehow it just reminds me some memory that i came here before during my diploma years.
what was interest that i still manage to looks back to the post dated on 2009 and feel this was the only thing i feel worth to blog everyday because only yourself have those feeling although it might sounds useless thing for other people.

finally i arrived my home at 12.05am.
then i just went to do my online stuff and watch some news as usual.
it seems that the Kim Jong II, top leader of the Democratic People’s Republic of Korea (DPRK) had passed away last Saturday at the age of 69 from a great mental and physical strain.
while mourners in the country's capital of Pyongyang were pouring into the streets to grieve, many Canadians have welcomed the leader's death.
for my opinion, it seems that it was the Karma for the leader death because he seems not a very good guy according to the news i know about him.
besides, i liked the news about the Saudi Prince Alwaleed bin Talal invested around $300 million and gained around 3% share in Twitter.

it seems that a successfully social networking idea really can earn a lot of money.
sometime i just feel jealous that other people can earn money so easily while we need to work as "RM2K+" worker and need to think many ways to earn the money.
moreover, i also saw about the news say about a rich guy can "buy" 8 sons in a time at the link >>> Here but it was in Chinese.
somehow this shows that money seems can buy anything and welcome back to the materialistic world again because what we try to achieve in life including me was hope to earn as much money as we can.
actually i do saw many news everyday and just hope can share with more people.
however, it seems that no one will really see it and appreciate the things i share.
overall today i can considered as a happy day because can go many places and having fun.
XD

Apply Sheffield Hallam With Failed Result

2011-12-19T11:48:00.000-08:00

today i woke up at 9.40am.
then i just double check the tutorial question by edit a bit and send to my friend.
it seems that the Web-based Multimedia for Marketing morning tutorial class has been canceled and will be replaced tomorrow.
then i went to have economy rice as my lunch because there is no stock again for the "Wan Tan Mee" that i am craving for.
around 1.50pm i prepared myself and went to attend the Integrated Marketing Communications tutorial.
the tutorial class was just discussed about the tutorial question.
i was quite happy when the answer was correct although i thought it might wrong at first.

then i just asked some friend about the Sheffield Hallam University application.
honestly, i feel quite down when looking on others friend good result to apply for the SHU because my result was so bad.
guess i am the only one who dare to apply Sheffield Hallam University with super failed result.
seriously i just can blame myself for keep "emoing" a lot and fooling around while study.
sometime i feel so "funny" about myself that a fail class student like me also want to apply for this 3 month further study program at United Kingdom.
for now, the only things i can do was to study to pass all my exam as advice by friends and hoping that miracle will happen for SHU to accept my application.
anyways, i finally clear on how to apply this thing for every Tarc student.

below was the details of the application.
_____________________________________
1. The TARC-SHU application form obtained from SBS office.
2. The acknowledgement e-mail printed from the computer after on-line application.
3. One (1) set of transcript OR notification of results (Diploma & Advanced Diploma) which must be certified as true copies
4. A bank draft for the amount £300 payable to Sheffield Hallam University.
5. A bank draft for the amount RM200 payable to Kolej Tunku Abdul Rahman.
Note: i) Please make sure that the name of the university/college on the bank draft is spelt correctly.
ii) Please write your name and I/C No. overleaf of each bank draft._____________________________________

after that, we went to canteen 2 to buy some food before attending the next lecture.
around 4pm we attend the Strategic Marketing & Decision Making lecture and there was many student because there will be many "guidance" for our exam.
honestly, i seems to peep "her" from the behind view and it might be the last week of my whole semester to see her again.
the feeling was like knowing something you will never have, but yourself keep insists want to see although keep denying and self comfort.
besides, i also liked the thing shared by the lecture.
it was so true when he say that if you wish to drive luxury car and having big houses, the only ways by doing anything that related to sales.

the first requirement to have a successful sales was to have a great communication skills with people where i don't have.
sometime i feel that when looking on some small things such as their personality, you can already foresee how a person future will be.
if i really want to be part of them, there is much more things i need to change from now on.
after that, my friend fetch me home since there still have some tiny rains.
when i reach my home, i just went to take a nap because feel so tired.
the moment i woke up again was 9.10pm.
then i went to Ampau Enterprise to have "Poligami Ayam" as my dinner although knowing that the food was not healthy.

when i reach home, mother phoned me up and talk about the recent news which titled "赴升學展回程翻車 4美少女車禍死".
the news was about a young teenager who just got his driver's license after 2 month drived his father car fetching his sister and four friend to an education fair for further study.
it seems that the boy have loss control over and caused accident of four person die where one of it was his sister.
while looking at this news, no people will really understand how the boy feel because it was so hurt to lost someone that caused by own mistake.
the reason that my mother told me about this news was to advice us for driving slowly especially when fetching other people son or daughter.

looking at this incident, i just told myself to be grateful that at least i am still alive until now although not having a happy life right?
i believe that nothing is much more fear than facing a sudden death which it can't be predictable.
in conclusion, it comes back to the main point again that as long as you still alive, there will be chances to have a change.
therefore i was self comfort to myself that although don't have much good relationship with people, but at least i still can survive.
later on, some secondary friend has invited me to play some Dota match where he just back from Australia study although i feel quite tired at midnight.
overall today i seems to be so thick face to apply Sheffield Hallam Uni with failed result and just hope God bless me.
=)